syai's old blog.

2009-10-09T00:42:00.004+08:00

AND I HAVE MOVED .

WILL NOT BE UPDATING HERE ANYMORE.

[ THANKS. ]

2009-10-08T21:15:00.007+08:00

The End.

‘Je t'aime, Je t'adore’
it is in French.

‘Seni Seviyorum’
It is in turkish.

‘Seni Seviyorum’
It is in swedish.

‘ Te quiero’
It is Spanish.

‘Eu te amo’
It is portugese.

‘Sarang Heyo / Nanun tangshinul sarang hamnida’
It is in Korean.

‘Ti amo’
It is in italian.

‘Ik hou van jou’
It is in Dutch.

‘Volim te’
It is in Croatian.

‘I love you’.
It is simply what my heart is saying about you.

but it's the end.

And I’m sorry. U pushed it too far this time. It is just too much now that I can no longer find the strength within me to carry on fighting for it.

I am finally letting you go.

As much as I really hate myself for doing this, i don’t wish to go through it anymore. Please do know that, while I’m writing this, you’re still on my mind and tears keep falling down on my cheeks.

But don’t worry. This will be the last time, im gonna think of you, and cry because of you.
I just hope you’re happy with that someone new.

So goodbye.

[ and i have moved. ]

2009-10-08T12:25:00.002+08:00

Do You Get The Joke?

Having a bad day? Or just need something to cheer you up?

here's something i read over at the Net, so thought of sharing it with you guys.

Kinda dirty, but ohwells,

read it with an open mind people!

hope this helps.

Henry Ford dies and goes to heaven. At the Gates, St. Peter greets Ford and tells him, "Well, you've been such a good guy, and your invention...the assembly line for the automobile...changed the world. As a reward, you can hang out with anyone in Heaven you want." Ford thinks about it, and says, "I want to hang out with God
Himself."
So, the befuddled St. Peter takes Ford to the Throne Room, and introduces him to God. Ford then asks God, "When you invented Woman, what were You thinking?"
God asks, "What do you mean?"
"Well," says Ford, "You have some major design flaws in your invention: There's too much front end protrusion, it chatters way too much at high speeds, maintenance is extremely high, it constantly needs repainting, and refinishing, it is out of commission at least five or six of every 28 days, the rear end wobbles too much, the intake is placed too close to the exhaust, the headlights are usually too small, and fuel consumption is outrageous. Just to name a few."
"Hmmm...," replies God, "Hold on a minute."

God goes over to the Celestial Supercomputer, types in a few keystrokes, and waits for the results. In no time the computer prints out a report, and God reads it.

God then turns to Ford, and says, "It may be that my invention is flawed, but according to these statistics, more men are riding my invention than yours."

A man is in a hotel lobby. He wants to ask the clerk a question. As he turns to go to the front desk, he accidentally bumps into a woman beside him and as he does, his elbow goes into her breast. They are both quite startled.
The man turns to her and says, "Ma'am, if your heart is as soft as your breast, I know you'll forgive me."
She replies,"if your penis is as hard as your elbow, I'm in room 1221."

A husband takes his wife to play her first game of golf..... Of course, the wife promptly hacked her first shot right through the window of the biggest house adjacent to the course.
The husband cringed, "I warned you to be careful! Now we'll have to go up there, find the owner, apologize and see how much your lousy drive is going to cost us."
So the couple walked up to the house and knocked on the door. A warm voice said, "Come on in."
When they opened the door they saw the damage that was done: glass was all over the place, and a broken antique bottle was lying on its side near the broken window.
A man reclining on the couch asked, "Are you the people that broke my window?"
"Uh...yeah, sir. We're sure sorry about that," the husband replied.
"Oh, no apology is necessary. Actually I want to thank you. You see, I'm a genie, and I've been trapped in that bottle for a thousand years. Now that you've released me, I'm allowed to grant three wishes. I'll give you each one wish, but if you don't mind, I'll keep the last one for myself."
"Wow, that's great!" the husband said. He pondered a moment and blurted out, "I'd like a million dollars a year for the rest of my life."
"No problem," said the genie. "You've got it, it's the least I can do. And I'll guarantee you a long, healthy life.
And now you, young lady, what do you want?" the genie asked.
"I'd like to own a gorgeous home complete with servants in every country in the world," she said.
"Consider it done," the genie said. "And your homes will always be safe from fire, burglary and natural disasters!"
"And now," the couple asked in unison, "what's your wish, genie?"
"Well, since I've been trapped in that bottle and haven't been with a woman in more than a thousand years, my wish is to have sex with your wife."
The husband looked at his wife and said, "Gee, honey, you know we both now have a fortune, and all those houses. What do you think? "
She mulled it over for a few moments and said, "You know, you're right. Considering our good fortune, I guess I wouldn't mind, but what about you, honey?"
"You know I love you sweetheart," said the husband. "I'd do the same for you!"
So the genie and the woman went upstairs where they spent the rest of the afternoon enjoying each other. The genie was insatiable. After about three hours of non-stop sex, the genie rolled over and looked directly into her
eyes and asked, "How old are you and your husband?"
"Why, we're both 35," she responded breathlessly.
"NO SHIT. Thirty-five years old and both of you still believe in genies?"

A man escapes from a prison where he had been kept for 15 years.
As he runs away, he finds a house and breaks into it, looking for money and guns, but only finds a young couple in bed.
He orders the guy out of bed and ties him up in a chair. While tying the girl up to the bed, he gets on top of her, kisses her on the neck, then gets up, and goes to the bathroom.
While he's in there, the husband tells his wife, "Listen, this guy is an escaped prisoner, look at his clothes!
He probably spent lots of time in jail, and hasn't seen a woman in years.
I saw how he kissed your neck. If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, just do what he tells you, just give him satisfaction.
This guy must be dangerous, if he gets angry, he'll kill us.
Be strong, honey. I love you."
To which the wife responds, "He was not kissing my neck. He was whispering in my ear.
He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked if we kept any Vaseline in the bathroom.
Be strong, honey, I love you, too."

haha..there's more, but

i'll post it again some other time.

i hope its funny for you guys..

peace!

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-10-07T21:16:00.002+08:00

I've Just Got To Stay Strong.

i realised that ever since school started, i am getting more and more busy each day.

i'll get so freaking tired, once home and there will still be things left undone.

and it does not help that, im running a fever and is still feeling rather weak. sigh.

how i wished it was still the holidays..

So far, 3days into the start of the new semester, new class .. and it is still pretty quiet.

i hope it is just a matter of time before everyone starts talking to each other,

because if it doesnt.. i really do not know how to survive for the next few weeks or so.

Keeping quiet,sitting still and not disturbing anyone for just a single day is so not me.. right W35F?

true much.

Whenever it's break time or after school, when i meet the "anak-anak melayus W35F" ..

That's where i be the real me. Once i stepped into my new class after the 1st or 2nd break,

I instantly become 'abang2 cool..' -___-"

so quiet, sit down, do work, talk only when asked questions..

W35F is still the best lah seyy..

Aniways, i really do not know how the hell am i going to plan my schedule when all things seemed to clash with one another.

Currently busy with Gamelan training every Monday, Tuesday and one other day; Reflections '09 is drawing near, thus the intensive trainings.

And then Hairil, instructor of Endang, RP dikir barat Girls' group needed my help to be a part of their show for Reflections '09 as well. I don't mind actually, since i know i need to collect as much CE points as possible before i'll get busy with school stuff in my year 2's and 3's .

But That's Not All !

went for cucudatukmerah dikir meeting last monday, and it has been decided that we are going to send a team for the upcoming Piala Seni Dikir 4, organised by Si Anak Seni sometime in November, after all.

Having mixed feeling actually, PSD4 is certainly not our 'game'. personally, i feel that SAS is a group that is more on the creativity side, Cucu's more to the 'interaction with the audience' type.

So, if we really want to achieve something for the comp, i guess,

'perah otak lah nanti nak pikirkan set yg creative....' -____-"

Whatever it is, i will want to play, since it has been so so so so long since i last tepuk sepuluh.

On a personal note, i'll take this competition (insyallah if dapat selected lah kan) setakat nak lepaskan gian tepuk-tepuk, nak rase tu feeling naik platform, nak entertain the audience.

simply put, just to have fun. menang kalah takpe, asalkan enjoy beb.

not like some other group who thinks everytime ader comp,

dorang jer lah yang patut angkat. -_____________________-"

sorry yer, who eat chilli, you lah feel the spicy-ness .

and oh! did i mention Bob has brought in a lot of bebudak baru to CDM?

dengar2, ramai dier tarek. cukup untuk buat satu team lagy. wow, banyak tu.

so they're like forming the 2nd team, or the junior team of cucudatukmerah.

and coincidentally, they are all from......

FIRST TOA PAYOH SEC. -__-"

ohmygoodness la. of all schools, why first toa payoh sec??

not that i have anything against them, but ______.

never mind.

i just hope budak2 ni semer, wont 'semangat dua puloh sen'

or 'hangat2 tahi ayam' like that.

its really hard to find someone who is really passionate and is into this kind of things nowadaes,

but ohwells, we shall see.

so now you see. just how tight my schedule's gonna be?

ohwells.. dah minat.. aper nak buat kan..

yang penting, syai tak sabar nak ..

''PARABESANG....*singing*'' and " PALUUU...!!"

feels like starting a countdown of my own by the way, YAY!

( 31 more days to Dday! )

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-10-06T10:18:00.006+08:00

A lilltle Update about the weekend that has just passed.

went out raya-ing with the secondary school mates. Initially did not plan to follow, but Saf wanted me to tag along so much, so i decided to. and thank god i did, i sure had lots of fun that Saturday!This year pretty much the same thing, the usual peoples like Saf, Zaf, Shikin, Mus, Ilah, Sakinah, Han and Hafiz were there. Arif joined us at the later part, since he just got back from camp.

It was really great catching up with you guys lah. It's been ages since we last met, so macam best gitu loh dengar khabar diorang. hahaha. early in the morning ajer, si Ilah, dah buat hal. the baju i mean. got to know her baju kurung terkoyak, ader lobang . -___-" and because of that, we reached zaf's crib late. hahaha.

aniways, a lot of incidents happened. one that i will never forget for the rest of my life would be this: hafiz, selenger as he has always been, tried to put something in my pocket. nak kenekkan balek, i tried reaching for his songkok to put some of the murukus in it, but accidentally, the whole bottle of murukus dropped on the floor! like damnshit sia! pagy2 dah kecoh, buat hal kat rumah orang. i was so panicked that i tried picking up most of it and put it in back in the bottle, only to tell zaf after going to the next house. hehehe. sorry zaf, aku seriously taq sengaja. =)

Went to a lot of houses, and also played bunge api!! so fun laa omg. We were all behaving like small kids, having fun laughing,singing aloud and taking pictures together. and oh yeah, did I mentioned that shikin, for the whole day kept laughing and laughing? it was like she has something against me laa. hahaha. every words that i speak, mesti ader je tao nak kenekkan orang! -___-" but it was fun though. im sure you had fun, kan kan kan? =)

all in all, i sure had a great time raya-ing with you guys and hope there'll be more to come in the coming years alright? cheers!

The next day, it was jalan raya with the primary school friends pulaaq. it has been years since we last jalan raya together. So, this year, i pressured Liyana, the organizer, to make it happen this year. hehehe. Although, ramai janji melayu tak turun, only left me, Liyana, Afidah, Hidhir and Iskandar, and later on Farid as well as Mahathir tagged along as well.

had fun catching up with you guys too. At last dapat pergi rumah cikgu rohani, my primary school teacher back then. Tak sangka aku, cikgu rohani kate last year dier ader lah tunggu kiteorg ingat jalan ray ker rumah dier, tapi tidak. hurhurhur..

Aniways, since next year insyaallah semuer mesti dah der transport kan? dah senang laa sikit nak berjalan raya. boleh sewa bus ker lorry ker truck ker aeroplane ker, ramai2 longgok dalam.

kay best!

ohwells, maafkan syai yer kengkawankus, sekirenyer tersilap kater ker, terlebih gurau ker, korang paham lah kan syai ni suker gurau gurau. Jangan amek hati yer? :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA ALL!

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-10-02T21:09:00.005+08:00

I know I have been neglecting this space of mine for a few days already.

Apologies to all. Been super busy with so many things that I be so tired once home. This time it’ll be a much longer post, so bear with me alright?

Okay, had w35f chalet last Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. It was a blast! Happening habes, I tell you!! Many thanks to Reuben (like always..) who organized and ensured all goes as planned. We all had fun didn’t we, John, Christee, Mira, Kristi, Yanwei, Eunice, Reuben, Oscar, Bernard, Li jun, Samuel , Siti, Ahmad, Ain and bf ?? Did I missed out any names, friends?

Hahahs… To those who never turn up,

YOU GUYS SURE MISSED ALL THE FUN THAT WE HAD! =D

This was like the last time we’ll get to spend the time together with the w35f peeps, so there was no doubt I was going to turn up for it, though they were some financial issues, am glad that reuben(like always) settled it.

We played so many games and activities together during the chalet. To name a few, ‘chop chilli chop’ , ‘Twister’, ‘Magic card tricks’, ‘Blind Mice,’Swimming’ and MANY MORE.. ‘chop chilli chop’ was bloody hilarious. Now I know some of my friends don’t have any childhood games in the past! Heheh! Bernard looks totally lost, Samuel likes to start the action first even though it has not reached his turn yet, and Eunice loves the game so much and kept saying wrongly, ‘eh syai! Let’s play the chilli what chop what chop thingy again laa!’ Haha, ohmygod. Hilarious.

And yeah, I brought along my ‘Twister’ too. I’m sure all had fun playing it. This time round, the TNPs joined in as well, so it was total madness! Eunice always had diffciult2 positions, stretch here stretch there, Lijun always get the easy ones, one small little corner just for her -__-“ , John had difficulty reaching the further end, and I joined in the game as well, not all though, because I wanted to be the game master! The one throwing the dice, that is. Heheh... There was a’ TWISTER royal rumble’ going on, with Eunice and bf winning Ain’s and bf while Ahmud and gf narrowly losing to Oscar and gf. You should be there to see them at their most akward positions and their ‘eh syai, faster throw the dice lah!!’ expressions on their faces. Heheh… total madness I tell you!

As usual, I brought along my poker cards. W35F knows im addicted to card tricks, and yes I have learnt so many new tricks over the holidays that I have just got to show to all, especially bernurb. The feeling I get after successfully doing the tricks, and seeing his ‘ how the f you did that?!’ kind of expression.. Wonderful man! Haha.. and bernard, now that I have impart most of my tricks to you, be sure to learn them by hard ok, and you can in no time, amaze and fool your friends too, JUST LIKE HOW I AMAZE AND FOOL YOU!! =)

Swimming with the lads was also fun! Seeing Oscar, Samuel, Bernard and John going up the slides (which was clearly stated that this slide is for children age 3 – 7 years old) was damn funny laa. And yeah, Samuel actually practised his infamous scissors kick over and over again in the pool. At least it won’t hurt him like last time, where he did it at the hard court. So, we let him be. Hahaha... don’t worry Samuel, with practise, I’m sure you are going to master the art of scissors kick and you can even do it better than ronaldo! The fat ronaldo, I meant. =)

The last night, the TNPs and me played ‘blind mice’ in the room. So damn fun laa ! hide inside wardrobe, hide behind door, hide behind curtain, under the bed, everywhere! You know where I hide? Samuel and i hid inside the toilet, where actually we all had agreed that the game area must only be the four corners of the room, excluding the toilet, the main door, and the balcony door. Hahaha. But who cares, we sure had fun! . And lemme tell you, bernurb really sucks at this game sia, most of the time he became the ‘catcher’! hahaha!

omgoodness , just blogging about this makes me itching for another w35f chalet part2 sia. Don’t you guys think so? Another w35f chalet sounds like a great idea, doesn’t it? So, Reuben, are you listening? *wink*=)

Speaking of which, Reuben... our most hardworking boy here, celebrated his 18^th birthday at the chalet. So sorry bro! Didn’t get to be there with ya all, when you cut the cake and the friends sang the happy birthday song to you. I was at the balcony alone, errr… got too engrossed with some stuff that has always been on my mind that I forgot to come out. Hahahs... Anyways, happy belated 18^th birthday Reuben!! I wish you success in everything that you do. And don’t forget me please! thanks for everything Reuben!

And oh, I feel so so much at ease talking to Bernard and Oscar. The three of us had our own men’s talk, practically sharing our problems, our stories and stuff and from night at about 10 plus we all started talking, we lasted all the way until 7 in the morning. Long or what? I know, Haha…! But seriously, after talking to you guys, I feel so much better and yeah, at least now you guys are there to share my woes. Haha… And yes, I’m still holding on!

Some piece of advice to all, if you happen to be sad, angry, lost, confused, or whatever it might be, it hurts much bottling it up inside. Its best that you talk it out with friends, that you know you can count on. You will definitely feel better, much much better. I know, because I did. Thanks nurb and Oscar. You guys are great! =)

No pictures this time, Siti has all the pictures, am just waiting for her to upload it on facebook. Once up, I’ll post some of it again alright. So shout out to siti, hurry up and upload the pictures!!

And by the way, a reminder to all the peeps of W35F!! Please remember our trademark W35F handshake! We are going to be doing this for the next three years of our lives so, please get it in your heads okay!

Like how Bernard expressed it :

*left*, *right*, *punch*, *inverted right*, *thump your heart twice*, *then hit both arms, raise up and do ‘yay’ sign*!!

Till we meet again, w35f. Nice knowing you guys!

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-28T01:29:00.002+08:00

Cure / get rid of headache without pills - simple pain relief.

Headache is almost never located in the brain. There is actually not much ability at all to sense pain in the mass of the brain - surgeons do for instance not use anaesthetics on the brain when they perform brain surgery. Headache is almost always located in the muscles of the head - caused by tension built up during long time in these muscles.

This is what you should do to ease the pain:

Be observant and never let your rows of teeth meet each other any other times than when you are chewing something. There's no need to go around gaping like a fish - it's easily achievable to keep your lips closed without letting the teeth meet each other - but a small ventilation hole makes things easier.

Open your mouth wide and rotate the jaws from time to time. Snapping, crackling and clicking sounds from the jaws are usually nothing to worry about, it might even hurt some in the beginning - but that will cease in time.

Shoulders in level with your ears? Drop them and make rotating movements with them. ...The shoulders, not the ears - but it did indeed look quite impressive I must admit.

Are you always knitting your brows? Stop that.

Tip your head slowly to the sides and stretch out the muscles of the neck.

To massage the aching spots works temporarily if you also at the same time try to figure out where you got to relax in order to get rid of the pain more permanently.

Exercise. The human body needs physical work. Nothing is better against physical tension than running uphill a ski-slope for instance. Painful in the beginning but a pleasure after a while when you realize that you can make it - and to be able to run up a ski-slope is self-esteem and prestige everywhere.

Drink enough water - but not too much. Headache is also often a result of dehydration, but also the opposite, that some nowadays drink too much water and thus dilute the nutrient fluids in the body causing abstinence of sorts.

just a random post. i hope this helps.

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-27T02:22:00.004+08:00

SILENT SONG

It’s something that i will never forget for the rest of my life. It’s a medley in my head that plays when i wake and a lullaby that rocks me to sleep at night. It’s a love that can be never replaced, a love that only you can give me, it’s the only love that i want. But it’s too late, too late for anything to bring it back. Your’re too far for me to reach, too far for me to call you back. Your’e now only a memory that i fight to remember everyday. Crying will do me no good for you have broken my heart and tissues will not fix it. I pray for your happiness, happiness that i gave you for only a short time. Please remember me, please remember all the times that we shared. Maybe one day i’ll be fine……Maybe.

“ p/s: and I don’t miss you.. I miss who I thought you were,

that girl i used to love so dear..”

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-24T23:01:00.002+08:00

Kenangan Terindah

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu,
kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku,
kau lah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-24T05:36:00.006+08:00

Sploosh Splash And Swim!!

yesterday was something different.
i seriously had to have a break from all that has been happening,
and i wanted so much to be out of the house,
and be back late at night.

Had Gamelan in the afternoon.
training has been really intensive,
since Reflection '09 is drawing nearer, and we'r still have a lot to polish up on.
i am involve in the performance, i'll be singing too :)
and oh! admission is free by the way.
so to anyone who is free on the 29th Oct,
do come down alright. i'll pass you the tickets.
ahaha. skali sekala promote taq salah kan.
bukannyer selalu boleh dengar syai nyanyi.
hehehe..

After Gamelan,
proceeded to meet Saf at BnS.
Arep and her had planned to go swimming, so i decided to tag along.
since i do not want to go back home, early.
We walked to the pool, where Arep has been waiting for us for a long time.
once there, we wasted little time to change,
i just cannot wait to get into the pool. so jakon laa.
but when saf came back from changing to her swimming attire,
the bloody lifeguard stopped her from going into the pool,
saying her attire was inappropriate.
like wtf laa? then u expect her wear what? bikini ah?
bloody cheeeekopek!

kesian saf, belum dapat jamah air swimming pool tu.
so we decided to cabbed to Jurong East Swimming Complex
kat saner pulaaq, lagy satu hal.
baru nak terjun kat lazy pool tu,
lifeguard stop arep pulaaq.
kate boxers not allowed. sheesh! macam macam hal laa!
ni arep pun satu, ader ker patut dier pakai boxer yg spongebob tu?
terpakse korbankan seluar spare aku.

okay to cut the story short, we enjoyed our time together,
especially me.
but there was some point of time, i kept thinking about her
and that problem at home. _l_
why do you keep appearing in my mind eyy awak? hmm..
entah laa.
we took a lot of pictures, and i took the pain and trouble to edit them.
ni aku baru habes edit tu gambar semuer, penat tao!
so saf and arep, cepat cakap terime kaseh!
hahaha.

alright, here's some of the pictures.
the rest i have uploaded at my facebook.(click here for other photos!)
enjoy guys!

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-23T00:17:00.002+08:00

funny isnt it?

how that someone you cared so much for

is able to break your heart

over and over and over again..

and yet you can still love him/her just as much?

funny isnt it?

no word to describe it now.

she's happy with this.

he is not.

he needs her,she wanted someone else's

its okay, he said.

as long as she's happy with her life.

but just so she knows,

he still loves her with every little broken pieces of his heart.

if she finally get what she wanted so much,

he'll be the happiest man ever, for her.

but if she suddenly realise,

she misses him and needs him just as much.

he is just a phone call away,

he'll gladly take her back

and love her all the same.

im sorry if this is too much of a drama for you.

but i have to speak my mind about it.

im still thinking positively,

and hoping everything will end,

just the way i want it to be.

if this hurts you, im sorry.

but please know,

im just as hurt as you.

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-22T22:25:00.002+08:00

Third day of raya,

and its back to normal.

Mum and dad working

adeq skolah..

aku jer terperok kat rumah.

good thing arif and han was free to lepak today.

met them at the usual pondok.and after that went to Causeway Point

to arcade.

thanks for the company guys,

will be back to tonight to blog again.

till then.

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-22T02:52:00.010+08:00

As expected,

Raya this year was as much plain as past rayas.

It got off to a very bad start on the very first day of raya.

i do not want to elaborate much on this.

the only thing i was looking forward to, was to visit my dearest neneq.

pictures say a thousand words, so here it goes. bye.

have you guys ever wondered,

what's the point of asking forgiveness, from each other
when we ourselves know we will still make mistakes again?

aku tengok family keluar jalan raya sesame, aku rase jealous sungguh.
will this be the last raya im having with the whole family?
i don't know, im not sure.

whatever it is, aku dah penat.
seriously aku dah penat. penat untuk menghadapi segala ini.
it has reached a point, where my hands are up,
and i say, 'aper nak jadi, jadilah..' i
m troubled by so, so many things,
and i don't have that any strength left within me,to hold on.
i feel i don't have anyone by my side,
the only person i love so much have already been taken away,
and i'm left all alone.

to you:
i dont think you will ever be mine. you wanted me to move on, i did. U came back, and made me wait again. and now? i dont know, i leave everything to Him now. just go, if you want to and Let me be, i dont care about any other thing else right now. all i want is to see you happy, with or without me. that's all.

to you:
dont you fuckingly ever realise that whatever you're doing is breaking the family up?
He gave you a chance, im pretty sure no other dad in this world, can afford to.
But he did.
and you, stubborn as always, did it again.
sampai biler ni, kau nak sembunyikan?
dari neneq ader, sampai sekarang neneq dah tak ader, engkau masih tak berubah2.
Now because of your actions, the family is breaking apart.
i seriously dont have any respect for you at all,
no more.

to all,enjoy your hari raya okay?

have fun with your loved ones. and thanks for reading my crap.

at least i feel slighty better now.

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-19T00:00:00.001+08:00

i know its still too early,

but i guess i'll be too busy to update this space of mine for the next few days.

ohwells.

yey yey!!

besok raya!

yey yey!!

besok raya!

kepada semuer umat islam di singapura,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

dan kepada semuer yang kenali diri syai..

mintaq ampun laa many many, dari hujung rambut ker hujung kuku kakiku

sekirenyer pernah tersalah kata ker, tersalah pandang ker

tersalah hidu ker, tersalah pegang ker, tersalah dengar ker

dan lain lain ter.. yang sewaktu dengan nyer yer..

dan juga, halalkan laa segala minuman dan makanan dan *puff puff* syai yer..

thank you!

don't you all worry! syai tahu korang banyak buat salah terhadap syai..

tapi tak aper, i also forgive you all already!

so, spread the love around people!

have fun enjoying all those delicious delicacies and those yummy kuihs alright!

sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang korang!

* muacks muacks!! *

nenek.. nak duit raya!!
sigh..

[and i'm done.]

2009-09-16T02:39:00.002+08:00

and so it's 2:40 am and i'm still awake. wide awake.

-______________________-"

okay so we are left with 4 days before we

menjemput datangnya bulan syawal

hari raya.

yeay yeay yeay!

insyallah kalau penuh lagy tahun ni..

it'll be 9 straight years

ive managed to fast fully, since p5!

proud or whuuut?

hehehe..

so yeah, bulan syawal may be coming

but like i've said,

enjoy and cherish this remaining days of Ramadhan

No one, but HIM, knows this Ramadhan might just

be the last one for you or even for your loved ones.

so okay! that's that.

mum has been nagging and nagging and nagging and ..... (continued)

at me to kemas2 my room! pfft...!

bukan taqnaq kemas laa mama,

cumer busy jer.. mana ader time..

and i always tell her 'tomorrow laa, tomorrow laa promise!'

but it seemed like tomorrow never came, at all.

hehehe.

will be springcleaning my room and the house

tomorrow i guess. (tomorrow again? haha..)

since i'll be busy with Gamelan today.

sigh.

inilaah hidup aku.

taq busy ngan sekolah, busy ngan dikir.

tambah now Gamelan pulaaq.

adoii!

macam neneq slalu kate,

" dikir barat, dikir barat, dikir barat..

suka naah sembah setan! "

adoii neneq.

-____-"

and yeah, speaking of which

i dont know, but..

i still dont have the 'raya' mood.

how about you guys?

i guess, hari raya

will never be the same again,

without neneq around.

Usually, nak dekat raya ni..

i'll be staying over at neneq's house

jage api pasal nak masak ketupat.

all the arangs, the hot2 water..

and yeah, neneq yang ajar syai

menganyam(spelling betul tak?) ketupat.

haha.

yess i know how to do that.

proud or whuuuut?

am missing all these.

i just dont know how it's gonna be for

the first day of raya.

usually the first house will be rumah neneq,

sumer sedare, makcik2 berkumpul di situ.

this year cam mane??

im not so sure myself..

but all i know is,

i am definitely visiting her new resting place.

tunggu eyy neneq..

abang comiiiiiiiinnnnng!!

since nak dekat raye ni...

ader video nak share ngan korang2..

selamat hari raya semuer. advance laa.

enjoy.

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-16T02:26:00.002+08:00

Just Friends?
by: LeAnNe

I love you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end.

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-15T03:20:00.004+08:00

its 3:20am right now and i am still wide awake.

need to kick this weird sleeping habit of mine soon.

like seriously.

ohwells,

might as well i blog to kill my time away,

so here's something i read which i thought i should share with you all,

particularly to those who have just been through breakups and stuffs on..

How to Get Over Him: An Honest Guide to Surviving a Breakup.

relinked from:lifestyle.msn.com/relationship

"It's universally acknowledged that breaking up is as much fun as a root canal, but there are ways to lessen the pain. Here's how to come out of a breakup with your sanity and dignity intact."
By Erin Torneo

Let's face it: Breakups are about as much fun as food poisoning — and they can cause even the most cool, collected woman to curl into a fetal position on the floor for days.
If you've recently gone from coupledom to splitsville, read on. Cosmo sat down with Greg Behrendt (He's Just Not That into You) and his coauthor wife, Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt, to discuss their bestseller, It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken: The Smart Girl's Breakup Buddy.

In your book, you suggest having no contact with your ex for 60 days and enlisting a pal to make sure you don't drink 'n dial after a breakup. But is it really so bad to call him on day 58, just to see how he's doing?

Put that phone down and don't backtrack! You've had 58 days of being strong and independent — the mess is behind you. Ask yourself: Is it really worth going back? In your gut, you'll know the answer. Make it your mission to give yourself a purpose — other than pining for your ex. See a movie, read a book, take a walk (not down his block!) — whatever takes your mind off of him.

How do you know that your first post-breakup relationship isn't just a rebound?

The fact is, it probably is a rebound relationship. But there's nothing wrong with that. Just be candid with the guy. When you say to Mr. Rebound, "I'm totally getting over this breakup right now, and this is your lucky day because I just want to have fun," he'll probably be psyched. How great to get to be the "have-fun-guy" instead of the dude you're trying to pick out china patterns with. For some men, that's like winning the lottery!

What if you broke up with someone, but realize maybe you were perfect together after all. Should you call him and try to get back together?

If you find yourself feeling that way, it's probably a case of what we call "dumper's remorse." Starting over can be tough, so often we end up second-guessing decisions and rewriting the relationship. We forget the reason we broke up. Avoid contact and wait for your common sense to return.

How do you know when your guy has already decided in his head that it's over, but he's not going to cut the ties — what you call in the book a "backhanded breakup"?

Guys will pick fights over little things when they don't have the guts to get out of a relationship. So if you're fighting over leaving the curling iron plugged in, that's probably a sign that something bigger is going on. He's just waiting for you to get mad and say something like, "Well, then maybe we shouldn't be together!" Then all he has to say is, "Good, I'm outta here." It's very sneaky.

Can you ever really be friends with an ex?

When you're first trying to get over someone, you can't immediately plan to be friends. You need to have distance to see him for who he really is — that's why we recommend the 60-day "he-tox." Exes who end up as friends have usually had significant time pass — years, not months or weeks. But hopefully, you'll be in a rockin' new relationship and won't want to bother with dragging anything old into it

.

What if you're close to your ex's family and still want a relationship with them even though it's over with him?

You also loved those pair of jeans — but they're his jeans. That's his family. It's not for you to keep. Let them go.

Can revenge ever be good therapy, like flirting with his best friend or spreading a nasty rumor about him?

The best revenge is getting on with your life and living it to the fullest. Because you're doing it for you, not somebody else. Greg once dumped this woman and a year and a half later, he saw her on the street. She looked terrific and was with a total babe. She never called him after it was over but clearly had moved on with her life. That's the way you would want to be seen. Don't hound him with IMs, break into his e-mail, or hook up with him when you're both lonely at 2 a.m. hoping you'll get back together. Keep your dignity intact and set out for the new direction in your life. That's the best way to get back at him.

thanks for reading!

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-15T02:00:00.006+08:00

oh.my.god.

i just read someone's blog.

i guess it's for me,

since she ended the note with a familiar name

ohwells.

thank you so much for that post

am still lost for the moment.

so bear with me, please.

haha.

i am fine now.

it's great to know my friends are there for me when i'm down.

like i have said,

its hard to move on, but i'm trying.

and yes,

you don't have to say all that about that particular person.

for whatever he/she has done,

i'm sure there's must be a reason to it.

i am just glad,

that we're back to friends.

we'r still on talking terms now

so it's not that bad after all.

hahaha.

i have always been the one sacrificing for other peoples' happiness

and will always be.

cheyy!

no worries,

i'm slowly picking myself up,

trying to be the old 'syai' back.

hehehe.

so kawan,

thank you so much.

you're a great friend.

i appreciate for everything that you have done, really.

*TERIMA KASEH*
Little MISS shorty! =)

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-14T00:43:00.016+08:00

Dikir powerhouse show at Kampung Melayu
happening habes!~

awesome day today! really enjoyed myself tonight..

sesiaper yang pergy tady..

GEREKS TAK, GEREKS TAK??

hehehe..

banyak kumpulan weyy join in the fun..

ader Cucu DaTuk Merah, ader Ulan

ader Andika, ader Makyong Kedek

ader Durba Dua, ader Keris

ader BarangBaik Barang Bagus

ader Kelana Purba =)

did i miss any groups out?

ohwells.

haha,

bukan hari-hari dapat tengok

different groups, combining as one

nyanyi-nyanyi, tepuk-tepuk

sesame..

aniways,

tengah nak ker kampung melayu tu,

terserempak with suhairina

haha.. my new friend!

tegur jugaaq yer kamu?

hehehe..

and wazz!

aku tak nampak kau pun?

haha, best per tady?

LOL!

ouhkays, some pictures that people took.

sesaper2 ader gambar2 time tady nyer show.
send dekat sayer yer?

thank you!

this is the only videos i have, for now.
part pembukaan tepuk sepuluh aje..
will try to get the part2 lagu juare and the part2 karut.

in the mean time
enjoy peeps!
and oh!
spot me!
=p

Herman S was actually there to sing 'di pinggiran aidilfitri' LIVE!

enjoy!

for other videos, please click here:

Ogy ft. dikir singapura(sunyi sepi)

Fairuz Reza & Aliff Azman ft Dikir Singapura(rakan muda)

part karut!

wau bulan!

countdown : [[ 23 down, 6 more to go! ]]

[ and i'm done ]

2009-09-11T02:59:00.003+08:00

Dikir Show Gelanggang At Kampung Melayu

this coming sunday!

so looking forward to this.

dah lamer tak tepuk sepuluh weyy,

naik gian pulaaq aku.

the last gelanggang was held last two years, i think.
damn exciting!

its not like everyday you can see

different groups combining as one,

kutuk mengutuk each other,

in a fun way.

can still remember, start pukul 8lebih after buke,

sampai pukul 1 lebih baru nak wau bulan.

I had to take a cab home,because of that.

public transport dah bis beb.

hahaha.

so to anyone who has no plans this sunday,

do come down to kampung melayu!

ajak lah bapaknyer ker, maknyer ker,
pakwenyer ker, makwenyer ker

dan sewaktu dengannyer..

Jom sama-sama riuhkan suasana di kampung melayu!

dengar2, ramai kumpulan ni kali..

entah laa.. but ohwells!

SCDF (Sembawag Canberra Dikir Family) which consists of CDM, Hulubalang, Ulan,
Ching3 and Harapan Vs Dikir Kita (Keris and Durba dua).
spot me guys! hahaha.

see you guys there!
=D

[ and i'm done. ]

2009-09-10T05:22:00.003+08:00

Its so hard to say Goodbye to Yesterday.

" Never say good-bye because good-bye means going away, and going away means forgetting. -Peter Pan"

" Never say I love you, if you don't really care- Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there- Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart- Never say you're going to if you don't plan to start- Never look me in the eye if all you do is lie- Never say hello if you really mean goodbye. - Author Unknown”

[ and im done. ]

2009-09-08T04:24:00.002+08:00

okay here's something i read just now,
so thought i should share it with you guys..
do tell me what uu guys think the guy should do alright?
thanks..

'' He accepted her friend request over on facebook, and a simple 'hie!' resulted in them adding up on msn and they lasted the whole night.

she was happy she met a new friend,

he was happy he had finally met his true love.

they hit off really well. Exchanged contact numbers, started texting each other. simply said, he could not have enough of her. every another day his love for her grew, so much so that he wanted to confess to her.

I love her with all of my heart,

But I don't know how to tell her.

Where do I start?

So I sit and I think in front of my screen,

But my thoughts seem so meager and lean.

and so,
he finally confessed to her. Just barely 2days he'd known her.
She was touched; she actually had the same feelings for him.
he made a promise to God, that he will cherish and care for the bestest gift He had given to him.

But alas, there was not to be a happy ending after all.
She said she needed more time, it was too early.
She wanted to be sure of this, to be the best-est for him,
that she could ever be.

his simple reply was, ' you dont have to huney, you are the best thing that has ever happen to me.'

He was sad, of course. but he let it be.
because he felt that if they're meant to be with each other, they will be.

and so, they continued their friendship, like how it used to be
but she didnt realise it was heartbreaking for him.
He made her smile, He made her laugh.
but deep down he said, ' i really wish you were mine.'

He wont let her see what's deep inside

All the sadness and pain behind his eyes

she ask 'what's wrong?', he said, ' I'm okay '

Just fake another smile and walk away.

when everything feels like going to the way he expected to be,
something had to happen that changes all this.
he asked her, if he meant anything to her,
she said that he does, just like how her other friends do.

the world came crashing down on him, but he smiled and say thank you.

but all he wanted was for her to say, 'i really care for you.'

and so he needs his time to be alone, to get this mess out from his head
he told her he'll be away for the moment, 'would you even care if im dead?'

a few days have gone by, and he's thinking of her all the time
and as he look up in the clear blue sky, he wonder no more, cause she's fine.

If he could talk to her for just one more day

There are just so many things that he would say

And more than ever right now he wish she was here

Cuz he loves her so much, and he misses her here

to be continued... ''

and may their love story has a happy ending.

amin.

2009-09-08T02:44:00.002+08:00

Dedicated especially for that makcik keropok.
enjoy everybody!~

siapa engkau makcik keropok
dimana engkau makcik keropok
bila kau datang makick keropok
bila kau muncul kami cabut

hidup sengsara makcik keropok
hati tak senang makcik keropok
bila kau datang makik keropok
bila kau muncul kami cabut

rambut beruban makcik keropok
baunya bangkai makcik keropok
giginya jongang makcik keropok
itulah kamu makcik keropok

kami sedang masak maggy di dapur
tiba2 ade orang ketuk di luar pintu
lihat di lobang, hati rasa takut
you know what was that? alaaamak makcik keropok!

kami bukak pintu makcik keropok
dia tersenyum makcik keropok
dia bertanya makcik keropok
'nenek hanya nak jual keropok...'

keropok udang, keropok ubi
keropok ikan mesti dibeli
bermacam macam ada di sini
beli laa tiga, dapat satu free

kami taknak beli makcik keropok
bukan tak sudi makcik keropok
kami no money makcik keropok
economy sedang merosot

makcik keropok start jampi jampi
mata memukau, tenung kat kami
sambil berkata, 'tolong larh beli..'
kita dirasuk lalu beli

diminta duit, kami pun bagy
berpacket packet, kami pun beli
tersenyum lebar, dia pun pergy
tolong larh jangan datang lagy.....
=)

2009-09-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

'Takdir Sedang Berbisik'

spent the whole day today watching this malay drama.

i feel so.. insaf now. hahaha.

definitely a must watch,

so to anyone who has practically nothing to do at home,

go and watch it okay!

"Seorang isteri tidak mahu menerima hakikat mempunyai suami yang cacat. Hati kerasnya meninggalkan suami dan anaknya demi mengejar kebahagiaan yang diidamkan. Lakonan Rosyam Nor, Umie Aida, Fauziah Nawi dan Faizal Hussin."

gereks? hahaha..

watch from the very beginning then!

do tell me how you guys find it okay?

cheers!=)

takdir sedang berbisik part 1

2009-09-05T00:26:00.005+08:00

another video, again by us.

no offence to anyone okay, so peace!

enjoy peeps. =D

aku pergi geylang, nampak korang
jalan berkepak2, macam nak kene sepak
minah,
berkening2, semue dicukur rapi
dulu engkau lawa, skarang macam @*!$*??

kembalilah ke jalan yang benar,
oh semua matrep dan minah

jangan pikir kau terror, jangan pikir kau hebat
padahal korang hanyalah sampah masyarakat
tak perlu kerek2, perangai macam setan
padahal sluar dalam mak korang yang cucikan

ooh..minah2 semua dengar
abang nak kasi advice sikit
jangan pakai baju terdedah-dedah
nanti mata abang yang sakit

ooh.. matrep2 dengar sini
tak perlu nak show off lagi
satu hari kita kan mati
nanti di akhirat kita yang rugi

matrep2 di sini dan sana
aku meluat tengok korang merata rata
lagy2 bila dorang dengan minah mereka
tangan2 dorang mula start meraba2

oh.. matrep2 di bawah block
suke saje buang masa
lebih baik pergy terawih
dapat pahala di bulan puasa

oh.. minah2 di bawah block
bukan abg nak mengata
janganlah kau isap rokok
kan tak manis dipandang mata
=)

2009-09-05T00:18:00.003+08:00

remember this?

pinky promise, ninja.

2009-09-03T00:52:00.009+08:00

today, went to buke with the usual lepak gang at woodlands bazaar, to celebrate Arep's birthday.
was supposed to meet at 6, but only han was there when i arrived. standard, janji melayu lah katekan, hahaha..

well, mus and ahmad was not present, had stuff to do at the last minute.
been some time, since i last saw them, but ohwells.
at least sheila, yang sungguh lamer aku dah tak nampak, was there.
so, bought our food at the bazaar, and off we went to buke at titanic.
coolshit or what.

after filling our stomach, we went to crescent park, our usual hangout.
left me, han, saf and arep while the rest had to go home.
to continue celebrate arep's birthday.
we shared money to buy him stuff, and that cute little birtday card
which had big words 'happy birthday princess' on it.

banyaknye pincess lah arep, hahaha..

some of the many pictures that saf took.

and yes, saf was eating her doughnut when the squirt2 thingy dropped onto me!

bukannyer nak tolong amek tissue kape, terus p amek gambar.. pfft!

and yes, did another video again.
but its not editted this time round,oh wells.
enjoy!

i wanna go somewhere far away, can?

2009-09-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY LAAH MATRIP!

aku pun tak tahu kenape aku panggil kau matrep,

when your so not one.

agaknyer pasal blog kao nyer pasal ah.

maybe, arif = arep = matrep?

never mind.

so,

happy birthday lah kawan.

umur tu dah makin meningkat.

cepat2 laa dapat lessen kereta kau tu.

jadi kalau aku boring2 naik motor, boleh tompang kau.

kalau kau boring2 naik kereta, boleh tompang aku,yer.

yang penting, by next raye.

public transport, no more!

whoohoohoo!

happy 19th birthday lah, bro.

wish you success, in everything you do.

nanti dah besar, dah kaya

jangan pulaaq kau lupe aku!

kalau tak, aku tahu nak bilang umi kao ape..

*kening naik2*

okay!

buke nanti dengan korang2 today.

see ya guys soon!

video ni, dedicated untuk si birthday boy.

padahal dier ader kat situ, tukang amek video.

hahahaha.

video dier gelap, pasal hp matrep tak bagus.

bukan pasal kiter gelap okay!

let's just sleep, and never wake up.
tell me that this is really not happening, please?

2009-09-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

so okay, yesterday me went to Geylang, with the family. pretty much the same old thing, every year. so yeah, was not that excited going there in the first place.

it was like basically walking all over the place, aimlessly just to look and buy stuff.

maybe it's because im with the family, and not friends. i guess, it'll be much more fun if im going Geylang with friends.

but ohwells.

bump into several friends at Geylang, like nazir and gf and aiman, then nazri labu on his bike, followed by this one budak durba, whom i dont know his name.

he's familiar, but i dont know his name, so yeah.

and saw siti. yes i know, i saw you laa siti. but i pretended not to. hahaha..

so that's about all.

and today!

just got home from lepak session with arif and ilah actually.

its matrep's birthday later, so thought of lepak-ing with him.

he wanted all to post our birthday wishes to him at FB

so thick-skin. ahahaha.

so yeah, I came up with this idea to make this video,

ARIF was the editor,

and ILAH was the main actress.

so WE made the video, okay? hahaha.

enjoy everybody :)

you gave me hope, and brought me high up in heaven,

only to bring me down back to earth, again.

2009-08-31T00:30:00.008+08:00

First up, thanks to all who took the time to read my previous post.
and saying a prayer for my neneq. i really appreciate that, so thank you.

well, today . pretty much the same thing, i guess.
woke up so late, on lappy, watched tv, text her :), while waiting for the time to buke.
this has been going on and on, and im starting to feel bored already. hahahas.
something to look forward to, buke-ing with the malay W35F peeps this tuesday
as well as buke-ing with the usuals the next day!
woohoohoo! i seriously hope, im able to make it for the both of them.
been missing my friends lately. hahaha.

and OH YEAH!

my knees! pffft....! it 'act up' again today! but this time, it feels much more pain than what i've used to gone through. it was just like the first time i had this problem. mygawd!
i literally walked, or should i say, limped from my room to the toilet, but it seems like forever to reach.
damn you right knee. hate you. urggh!
i really think i should go do something about it. well, maybe i should pester ikhlas to give me that pakcik's contact, so i can arrange for an 'urut' session.
im going the traditional way, this time, so i sure hopes it'll help.
and oh! if you dont get what i meant by my knee 'act up' again, i did post an entry about it, so yerp, ringan-ringan lah tangan yer gy bace my previous post tu :)

saw this on youtube, and i think its hilarious.
so i shall share it with you guys. cheers!

when two hearts become one.

I'll be your Romeo, and you'll be my Juliet

2009-08-30T00:57:00.004+08:00

It seems almost unreal to think that it has already been four months

my Grandma joined God in heaven.

So much has happened in my life ever since, without that one important person by my side. Those close to me would know how much she means to me, she is much more important to me than my family is. Because in truth, she is my family. She was the one who took care of me since birth, feeding me, bathing me, scolding me, only to be taken away by my mum and dad, when I am old enough to walk. Man, I got so many things to say, but im just not good with words. In short, I really miss my late neneq so so much.

Today was a little bit different. Decided to buke with my makciks and cousins at neneq’s place. Since it has been some time i last met them, me and adeq decided to tag along. But honestly, I wanted to be anywhere, but there. Neneq’s place. You know, there’s too many fond memories and her stuff there. I feared that seeing all her stuff,that reminded me of her, my emotions will take over me.

As I walked up the 2nd floor to my granny’s house, I felt sad suddenly. Why? Because I remembered, she had to struggle up and down the long steps whenever she had to go for her regular check-ups. I was there , beside her, supporting her arms, as we slowly make our way down. FOR EVERY CHECK-UPS SHE HAD TO GO. That was partly the reason why I skipped so many class during my ITE times, but its okay. She is much more important, to me. I can still remember, I used to joke with her everytime we had to climb up the stairs.

Me: neneq ni, slow laaaa. Siput pun jalan lagy cepaat tao nek.
Nenek: nenek tahu lah, nenek lambat. Abg nak naik, naik dulu la.
Me: alaa majok lah tu. Jgn majok nek, buruk tao nenek klu majok. Kay cepat2! Lagy sikit jer tu!

Haha.. these were the times.. I miss walking up the stairs slowly with u neneq.

As we reached neneq’s house, I started to tear. I don’t know why I did, but it did. Slowly I step into the house, my eyes were constantly looking here and there. Is this where, my granny used to live, where I used to come and visit her every weekend? I felt akward going into the house. I do not know why. I went into the both rooms, the kitchen, the toilet, everywhere. And that’s where I saw it, her tongkat and her wheelchair. I started crying non-stop, touching the tongkat. This was the tongkat that followed her wherever she goes, in the house, outside the house, everywhere. It was so hard for me to fight back my tears, I didn’t want to show my adek, sedare and makciks that I was crying like a child. I Hold on to it for a good 5minutes, wiped my tears and it was time to buke.

Makton bought for me nasi ambeng, and we all ate at the living room. Suddenly I flashed back to the time where neneq was still around. Tyme buke, we will all be seated like how we were, and she on the chair looking at us eat. I can still remember her smiling and talking, while we were all buke-ing.

Those times..

There was ayam masak merah in the nasi ambeng, so yeah. That reminded me of her too. Why? I can remember whenever I felt like going to neneq house, I’ll call her and tell her I’ll be going to her house today, and she will always say,’tapi rumah neneq tak masak tao.. nak dtg, dtg laa, tapi takder makan.’ . But when I reached her place, fuuuuuuuuh! Dari jauh dah boleh bau neneq punyer special ayam masak merah.

This is why I love her so much; whatever illness she is having, kaki saket2 ker, she will ensure there’s food for us cucu to eat.

Me: neneq! kater tak masak. Saket2 boleh jalan2, boleh masak lagy. Nenek eksyen saket ehhh…
Nenek: abeh? Nak harapkan abg masakkan untuk nenek ker? Boleh lah masak sikit2 gini, kalau takder makan abg nk makan ape kan nari.
Me: boleh beli kat kedai mamak bawah aper.
Neneq: alaaa. Dorang takder ayam masak merah.
Me: betul! Neneq lah yang paling best! Ehhe…

Ohgawd, I seriously miss your ayam masak merah,right now.

After done with buke, we all sat around and watch some dvds. When it was close to 10, we all decided to go back home. I really did not want to leave the house, because for all the while I was in the house, I am sure I had this feeling, that she was around,somewhere, Looking at me. Err, its like ‘ I may be looking at the tv screen, but I had this niggling feeling , someone’s watching me at the kitchen. When I turned around, there was no one.’ Something like that. I was not scared at all. But I was hoping, if it is really her, I could just catch a glimpse of her. But I didn’t. so after looking for one last time, I stepped out of the house, makton locked the door, and we were on our way home.

So a note to neneq,

"Abg betul2 rindukan neneq. Abg rindu nenek punyer ayam masak merah. Abg rindu nenek urutkan abg. Dulu, nenek suker sangat senyap2 letak 10dollar kat dlm kocek abg. Tahu2 jer, wallet tumbuh duit 10dollar, kadang2 kocek seluar tumbuh duit 10 dollar, kadang2 beg skolah punyer pocket pun boleh tumbuh 10dollar.ader je tao tempat nak selit duit! Abg rindu segala2nyer tentang neneq, neneq tak rindu abg ker? Tapi kenape sampai sekarang tak pernah pun neneq dtg kat mimpi abg? Makton ader ckp, nek amah pernah mimpi neneq cakap gini gini gini kat nek amah, tapi kenape bukan abg? Sekarang neneq dah takder, abg tak tahu nak balas jasa-jasa neneq. Cumer abg tahu, setiap malam, without fail tao! Abg akan sedekahkan al-fatihah untuk nenek. I miss you lah neneq,badly… " =(

Ok, I shall stop here now. can I ask anyone who’s reading this to say a prayer for her? I am sure she will receive it on the other side. thank you so much.

2009-08-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

And i have just received the letter.

a good thing i did, before mama or ayah got hold of it.
shall not talk more about it.
siaper yang tahu, tahu lah kan.
haha.
and im sorry okay bro! for dragging you along.
serious shit, i am so sorry.

so note to myself,
don't do this kind of things again okay!
once bitten, twice syai (shy)
itu salah !

omg, i feel so full now, like im 8months pregnant.
sheesh.

2009-08-27T00:12:00.002+08:00

i dont know why blogger only return to its normal self at night.

i think must 'sayang sayang' it, then can.

oh wells.

so a note to you.

i am goin to miss you. i just got to know about it like 10minutes ago.

i am sad that i am never gonna be seeing you ever again.

what makes me even more sad is that,

i did not have the chance to say goodbye to you, to hug you, to kiss you.

you were my first love, and i am going to remember you, for sure.

i hope they will take good care of you, just like how i painstakingly did.

i am going to miss you, so goodbye ....

my gilera .

2009-08-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

I hate blogger.
you have been testing my patience.
you would have been dead by now, if you exist.
damn you.

2009-08-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

it seems that blogger is back to normal only at late nights.

creepy, but im not sure why.

but its okay, shall blog now.

errm, finally ..

today marks the end of the las UT, Programming. -____-"
as expected, i didnt even know how to answer even a single question
so was literally just putting any answers to any questions.
and oh, thanks eh azhar! you know, i know.. =D
and so,
Im done with semester one! done with UTs! done with all that crap!

woohoohooo!

I'm so looking forward to the holidays.. even though i don't have any plans.
but it means, i can go to sleep late, i can wake up late like nobody's business
and lepak till the wee hours!

woohooohooo!

The bad news is, this mark the last day for the beloved W35F peeps.
brought along my 'TWISTER' for them to play.
managed to take pictures with eunice and yan wei, the chinese peeps.
feel somewhat sad, when they were going off.
never mind. we'll still got chalet coming up. so looking forward to it.

and yes eunice! i am so gonna shout it out loud 'EUNICE!!!' like nobody business like that, if i see you in the future. =D

after that, had one final lepak session with the malay peeps. all was there, though ain went off halfway. But, it was the first time, if im not wrong laa kan, that everyone was present ?
selalunyer, 'dekni ade, dektu takder'.. kalau 'dektu takder, dekni ader'..
played some card games, and were gurau-ing with all of them.
gonna miss all this. haha. i dont know but i feel macam so sediih gitu. ahaha.
so, we walked to causeway point at around 530pm, since we had to go home to buke.
the weather was kinda hot, but the thing is, everyone was like walking so damn slow.
macam berat kaki lah sangat-sangat naq balek. hahaha.
finally reached the control station, and it was time to say goodbye.
haha. saw siti's face, knew she was kinda sad. that made me sad too
after saying bye bye to the peeps, everyone then went to different directions.
and that was it.

no worries, we will plan to buke again some time soon.
make sure all will be free okay, azhar, siti, ahmud, zul, ain, mirah and mai?
good thing i took the videos from siti already, boring2 tengok baleq video
boleh ketawa sorang2. haha.

gonna miss you guys. especially you.

and im done for now.

2009-08-25T00:13:00.003+08:00

BLOGGER IS STILL TESTING MY PATIENT.

damn you.

Today, was a good day, for me.

MATHS UT done, left with PROGRAMMING.

YEAY-ness.

As expected, maths was hard, like hell.

i gave up on it in less than 15 minutes.

guess what i did for the last 20mins for maths ut?

hahaha.

spend the last 20minutes, sketching this.

nice? i know.

and im done with maths ut3, finally!

AND THEN!

went straight home, slept until 5.

poor azhar,mirah and siti.

lepak at library to kill their time

until buke time!

hehe..

met them around 630.

and i brought along my 'TWISTER' game.

lucky thing i brought it along,

they sure had fun.

me bought nasi campur at the woodlands bazaar, which was not nice.

am not going to buy from you animore laa, makcik.

mirah was superb laa.

beli makan, macam naq beli untuk sahur sekali.

hahaha.

jangan marah yer mirah,

bulan pose, taqleh marah.

terserampak with arif, saf and sheila at the bazaar.

don't worry, we'll buke sesame one day okay? :)

after filling up our stomach,

proceeded to play the 'TWISTER'

haha..

was damn fun.

i became the 'game master'

they all played along .

so fun.

ain saket2 main JUGAK , takut2 jer appendix dier terbukak

mirah pulaaq macam fighter, taknak kalah.

azhar, the only guy playing, pun taknak kalah

siti, standard. tukang ketawa.

and maisarah

shouting here and there.

' CEPAAT LAAAH!'

hahaha.

had fun lah today, seriously.

how am i not gonna miss you guys, when we'r not in the same class anymore?

sob. sob.

never mind.

the video is at siti's blog.

check it out, guys.

http://citynofazloon.blogspot.com/

countdown : 3down, 26 more to go

and im done blogging.

2009-08-22T00:05:00.000+08:00

BLOGGER IS

SERIOUSLY TESTING MY PATIENT .

cannot log in,

cannot change font,

cannot change the size,

cannot upload pictures, videos.

EVERYTHING ALSO CANNOT!

a good thing its ramadhan

so macam maner pun, i cannot get angry.

damn you lah blogger.

many things happened recently.

UTs almost over,

3papers down, 2 to go.

enterprise was okay, science was hard

and problem solving was confusing!

i just can't wait to get my programming

over and done with.

yesterday,

went to lunch with the usuals and chinese peeps.

had fun making a nuisance of ourselves.haha.

and yeah,

arcade, was damn fun.

oscar denying me the 2nd spot at daytona

by crashing his car to mine.

damn you. haha.

and we lost the game card.

so sad.

to you who took it,

hope you kena h1n1.

and im bloody serious about it.

gonna miss the w35f peeps.

like seriously.

and im glad, we'r finally talking.

and im done blogging.

2009-08-20T23:42:00.001+08:00

" To be in love with someone

who is in another relationship with someone else can be the most excruciating,

and at the same time the most seemingly beautiful experience of your life.

The experience is excruciating because it is hard to stop or change it. It puts you in a situation you may not be able to get out of for a long time, one you may in fact not want to get out of. Your inability to make the situation into exactly what you want it to be makes you suffer.
The experience is beautiful because the person that you are in love with seems like your perfect, ideal partner – your soul mate. There is a very special connection between the two of you. The attention from your loved one and the way he or she feels about you is deeply satisfying. The bond between the two of you seems magical.

In spite of the beauty and the connection in the relationship, you suffer tremendously. It’s as if you are on a roller-coaster ride, up one moment and more in love then you have ever been, down the next and in more despair then you have ever felt. "

something i read from the Net, which i thought i would like to share it with korang-korangs..

how true.

2009-08-19T21:33:00.002+08:00

things are turning from bad to worse.

i don't want to be the bad guy over here, nor see you behave this way.
we are, and will always be friends.

'friends forever...'

you never have to doubt that.

believe me.

2009-08-18T09:28:00.003+08:00

~ THANK YOU W35F ~
for the wonderful memories..

John (the small dude) :
thanks for saving my ass for every science lesson.

samuel (the organiser) :
you're the only other person in the class taking the same course as me,
so yeah hope to be in the same class again.

eunice (hotstuff babe!) :
the only girl whose older than me.
haha. last long with your boyfie alright.

Lijun (the japanese-faced babe!):
haha. i still think you look japanese. i dont know why. lol.
last long with oscar okayy? :)

Oscar (the korean hunk!):
you're the first friend i made in class.
maybe because your handsome,thats why.
last long with lijun okayy? :)

Reuben (the hardworking dude!) :
thanks for helping me when i needed help.

the most hardworking person in w35f.

Bernard(the gay boy):
i really thought you were gay at first. but not anymore.
and i prefer your old hair, but nvm.
you still rocks.

Junming( chong-ge!):
my smoking buddy. thanks for saving my ass for programming.
hail chong laa!

Daryl (the hunk!):
i dont think you should be chasing girls,
girls should be chasing you instead.

it was a pleasure knowng you.

QiYuan(7dollar):
i don't know why the friends call you 7dollar, but who cares.
its cool aniway.
anw, thanks for doing all the work for programming! :)

william(cheeer!):
thanks for teaching me maths, though
its difficult for us to communicate.
gonna miss you and your ,'cheeer!'

Tong-tong!( the china guy):
tong2! next time dont scold me bad word anymore okay!
kidding.
wish you success for your future.

charlene( the tongue-got-pierce babe!)
charlene nai wen yi! haha.
can remember your full name cause i did gave u a prank call b4 for not coming to maths class.
hehe

kristi(the pretty babe!):
i think you look better without tying up your hair laa.
but nvm
thanks for being my friend.

yanwei( the short babe!):
been calling you 'the blue shirt girl' ever since the first day of school.
cause i had a hard time remember your name laa.
haha.

jerrin (sharukh khan of w35f!):
you ah, long time never see you in class.
hope you recover soon.
ut cuming up okay!

christee (my darling!):
darling! haha.. thanks for cheering me up.
whenever i'm emoing.haha.
your one friend i wont forget. :)

Ain (mummy ain!):
wishing you a speedy recovery from your operation.
long time never see you.
miss your singing voice laa.
and yea, u sang really well okay!

mira (the bodybuilder!):
haha. sorry lah mira
kept teasing you 'girl badan sapau'
haha. i dont mean it laa.
sajer kacau2. mintaq maaf yer :)

maisarah (the sweet babe!):

probably the one friend ive grown attachedto the most.

yeah, i was close to you.

friend forever okay ? :)

ahmud (the serious dude!):

i really thought u had the 'eh-i-dun-disturb-u-u-dun-come-and-disturb-me-ah'

kind of attitude at first.

but u showed me your true colours during our

live in texas karaoke concert.

was that you? nvm

last long with her okay? :)

fazlun (the malu2-tapi-mahu babe!):

thanks for being such a wonderful friend.

and for all u have done for me.

appreciate it.

last long with him okay?:)

zul(abang2 cool!):

another smoking buddy of mine.

kiter jer eh cnsidered tua di class.haha.

thanks bro, halalkan makanan minuman dan rokok aku yerr.

azhar(abang2 gamelan!):

ni budaq maseh boi lagy.

boi taqper, isap rokok pulaaq tu!

siaper yang ajar?hehehe.

gonna miss the way u laugh laa.

the 'ketawa macam ader bender stuck kat tekak tu'

a little dedication to the peeps of w35f

From the bottom of my heart,Thanks for being my friend! :)

2009-08-17T00:35:00.001+08:00

If I had never met you

I wouldnt like you.

If I never had liked you

I would have never loved you.

If I had never loved you,

I would have never miss you.

But I did, I do, and I will.

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how i felt,

and still you would not understand.

So now, I leave without a sound,

except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.

2009-08-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

RESULTS!

At last, PIALA RAJA PANGGUNG 2009 telah pun selesai,
and fortunately enough everything went smoothly.
had an awesome yet tiring day today,
turun naik turun naik tangga usher kumpulan2
dengan kakiku yang tempang nii.
adoii.

Tapi taqperlah, it's not like everyday dapat organise competition kan
so yea,
congrats to yang menang, yang kalah tidaq mengapa,
asalkan enjoy beb.
and to the organisers,

CUCU DATUK MERAH

WE DID A GOOD JOB LARH SEY!

now watch us for the next upcoming comp,
ku dah taq sabar naq tepok2 ni.
hehe.

Tempat Pertama
Neng Nyno

Tempat Kedua
Andika Kencana

Tempat Ketiga
Durba Dua

Piala Puteri Dikir
Wahana Deksu

Tok Juara Terbaik
Neng Nyno

Tok Juara Berpotensi
Durba Dua

Tukang Karut Terbaik
Andika Kencana

Tukang Karut Berpotensi
Durba Dua

Paluan Terbaik
Neng Nyno

Paluan Berpotensi
Endang

Senikata Terbaik

SBPM

Senikata Berpotensi
Durba Dua

Awok2 Terbaik
Neng Nyno

Awok2 Berpotensi
Endang

Kesenian Terbaik
Neng Nyno

Kumpulan Berpotensi
Endang

Lagu Ciptaan Asli Terbaik (Ditaja oleh Saudara Talib)
Durba Dua

Koreografi Terbaik (ditaja oleh Saudara Imran)
Wahana Deksu

Pakaian Seragam Terbaik (Ditaja oleh Saudara Imran)
Wahana Deksu

Awok-Awok Paling cute
Epul (cucu datuk merah)
heheheh..

these are the results for the finals of piala raja panggung.

all 14groups were really on form today, as shown by their performance.

special recognition to Endang and Durba Dua.
to Endang, congrats lah to korang. work even harder to achieve greater heights alright.
kirim salam pader semuer :)
to Durba Dua, i really felt you all deserved the 2nd or even the 1st placing. you guys were awesome laa. dapat curi2 tengok korang pat atas, and i was like 'woaaaa!' biler tengok korang pat atas stage tu. nvm, aniway congrats to you guys :)

see you all at the next comp!

2009-08-16T02:19:00.000+08:00

PIALA RAJA PANGGUNG FINALS 2009!

and so this is it.

14 teams fighting it out

for that top prize.

which team will emerge victorious?

and which team will go back, empty-handed?

watch this space.

ahaha. cam paham jer aku nihh. but seriously, tomorrow is the day of the finals of the piala raja panggung 2009.

am so excited about it.

okayy, me not playing, just organising je -___-"

but dah lame taq tepok menepok nii, naik gian jugaak aku.

haha.

wished i could be involve in this comp, up there on stage

but ohwells ,

wanna see who the eventual winner will be.

TO ALL th 14 FINALIST GROUPS,

ALL THE BEST FOR TODAY!

kalah menang taqpe, yang penting enjoy!

2009-08-16T01:53:00.000+08:00

GET WELL SOON BRO!

a good thing that kau still alive lah. was shocked to hear the news that kau met with an accident. tengok apa dah jadi? kau ni dah lah tak hansem, abeh skarang dah jadi gini, kau lagi makin tq hansem!

haha, kiding bro.

but seriously, dengar aper yang dorang2 cakap, entah benar ker taq, 'kau kene heret dengan tu lorry laa', 'kau tercampak abeh kau flying kat tu signboard sampai signbord tu jatuh' laa and from the looks of your injury, the impact must have been so great.

so make this as a lesson learnt bro, we may have the right of way, but others may not neccesarily think so. kekadang, kiter yang bawak selamat, orang lain yang bawak taq selamat.

rest well aite jubs! wish you a speedy recovery!

yang penting aku sekarang lagi cute dari kau! haha!=D

2009-08-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

Skipped my programming class

go and watched 'UP' with the beloved W35F malay peeps, except for azhar.

step rajin jer budaq ni, suruh ikot taqnaq.

who could have thought mirah, and ahmud joined us to skip class

to go watch movie together together?

haha.

But, i know ahmud's gonna get into shit for skipping class.

JIWE AH LU EHK!

i like your style. bukan macam azhar. hehe.

'UP' was seriously good, nice and funny.

encourage you to watch it if you have not seen it.

ok so yeah, after that back to school for gamelan.

didnt wanna go actually, but ahmud wanted to, so ikot je laa.

and because of that,

i had to skipped dikir meeting at bedok.

meeting was supposed to b at 730, and the gamelan finished at 8.

so was so tired and decided not to.

nvm laa, sat sun dah busy ngan dikir pun.

PIALA RAJA PANGGUNG FINALS

this sunday!

2009-08-13T08:48:00.000+08:00

missed the old times,
where everything was just about fun and laughter.
where we used to meet every single night.
making silly videos. =D
now everybody's busy with their own life, busy with schools, busy with NS and stuff.
we all must go riding together one day, alright.

MAJULAH ADAMANTIUM!

mtv- ketahuan =D

mtv- jangan tunggu lama-lama =D

mtv- dangdut ini kali.. gelek korang gelek! =D

-* ADAMANTIUM *-
the pride and souL of admiralty.

and im done, for now.
do comment on our videos alright. =D

2009-08-12T22:00:00.000+08:00

My Biggest mistake.

today was a bit different. ayah send me to school today, because my knee 'act up' again.
had really difficulty walking today, and it is killing me. thanks ayah, for sending me to school today. i really regretted playing in that tournament, seriously. because of that, my life completely changed. i don't feel like a man now. which guy dont play soccer? yelah, taq tahu main pun, at least can kick the ball. nie tidaaq, main sikit jer, knee datanglah sakit dier. feels like cutting my right knee away, 'dah taqle pakai'

i can still remember it clearly. i had this soccer tournament way back in november08, with the adamantium peeps. to cut the story short, i was closing in on this player, and i accidentally slipped and dropped, while my knee was in a awkward position. that was where i heard a 'pop' sound. And the next thing i knew, i could not straighten my right knee, nor i could move. blame it on the pitch, it was damn muddy, and lot of holes here and there.

went to the doctor straightaway. the doctor wantedto refer me to the hospital for further chekup, but ayah said no need, just give me medicines and MCs. if things don't take a turn for the better, then we will go to the hospital. another wrong decision i made. i was on crutches the whole week, and going about doing my normal routine was hell. but by a week, i can slowly move my leg. so i was actually glad that it was nothing so serious like fractures or any internal injury, as what the doctor initially feared. But i guess i was wrong.

Fast forward to now, and it is already 10months, and im still having this problem. the knee 'acting up' . 'acting up' basically means, if i have this knee-jerk reaction or a sudden twist of my right knee, the 'pop' sound can be heard, and then i must slowwwwwwwly straighten my knee, hear the 'pop' sound again, and i will be back to normal. But it is really painful, i tell you. so you tell me, how much sufferings have i gone through for the past 10months? HELL.

i did went for an xray in early march09, but it was no use. i can still remember it.

doc: so mr syaiful, the xray reports shows that your bone is perfectly okay, is in the correct position, and no fractures at all. in short u are physically fit for ur napha test tmr.

me: ok, fine. so explain to me, y do i still have pain at the back of my knee then?

doc: oh maybe,its ur ligament. maybe u have torn ur ACL

me: can be detected by xray?

doc: no, u will need to go to a specialist.

me: THEN Y THE FUCK DO U TELL ME TO DO N XRAY THEN? IVE TOLD U, I KNOW MY BONES ARE OKAY, ITS JUST THE TISSUE! WHAT KIND OF A DOCTO ARE U, STUPID FAGGOT!

and i tore the xray report infront of him, stormed out of the room, banged the door, and gave him the middle finger before going off, didnt even pay the consultation fee. i was damn angry with that 'mamak' laa. but here's another mistake i made. i should have kept the report so, at least i have proof document the next time im going for my NS medical checkup. damn.

Now, i do not know what to do. i seriously miss kicking a ball, miss playing soccer. but what to do. i have to go for an operation. BUT ITS A BIG NO NO for me. i fear injections, thats why.
As im writing this, the knee are still hurting, and it has already been one whole day of pain, and agony. what should i do? HELP!

here is video of how the reconstructuring of ACL takes place.

viewers discreetion is advised.

my knee may hurt right now, but you hurt me more.

2009-08-11T19:08:00.000+08:00

Just So You Know by Jesse McCartney

was youtubing, practically nothing to do

when i chanced upon this song

love it though, so i thought i should just share it with you all.

enjoy.

I shouldnt love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldnt see you but i cant move
I cant lookaway

And i dont know
How to be fine When im not
'Cause I dont know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now

Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much i cant say
Do you want me to hide the felings
And look the other way

And i dont know
How to be fine when im not
'Cause I dont know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now

Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killing me
And im wondering why i've waited so long
Looking back I realize it was always there
Just never spoken

I'm wating here
Been waiting here

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now

Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

music sets the tone, and the feelings as well.

Missing You

2009-08-10T15:35:00.000+08:00

Missing You

All i need is one chance,baby
To prove to the world you mean everything to me.

Hey you. Thanks for calling me and accompanying me through the night. Really appreciate it that you would still wanna layan me and my 'gila-ness' in the middle of the night,even though you were out the whole day, and i know u were freaking tired, cause you sounded so. It's good we are talking now and that i no longer feel so 'awkward' when you're around with me, and the friends. Now, please don't say i'm a romantic guy okayy, cause i seriously am not. Adoii. The reason why im blogging about this is because i am so effing bored here at this supposedly 'luxurious' resort so i thought i might as well use the time to sort things out, and think about IT.

I guess we should know, more or less about each other now right? From that 'little game' we played over on the phone that night. Tough questions, yeah? hahaha.. And so, i did made it clear to you, that i still harbour hopes to be with you. That's right, i still do. The fact that you said 'if there is a guy who could make me forget about him, I would' gives me the motivation and the strength i need to prove to you, that could happen.

i'll fight till the very end, to prove to the rest that, this feelings i have for you, is true.

Aniway, so sorry i could not contact you the whole day in Malaysia. F laa kann.. So, i guess this is the only way to show you, that although i may be over here, my mind is always with you. and i know you would be reading this! =D

okay, shall stop here now. And i so cannot wait for tomorrow to come.
Life is indeed boring, without you.

All i need is one chance,baby.
To prove to the world, you mean everything to me.

2day1night Getaway To Endau Beach Resort

2009-08-10T12:39:00.000+08:00

2day1night Getaway To Endau Beach Resort

and so, i am writing this to pass my time here at endau beach resort,Rompin. i seriously had no mood to do anything today, and i don't know why. thought i could take the time to just forget about everything for the moment, and just to have fun. But sadly, it was not to be. Ayah told us to be ready by 3am, because by 4 we had to get out of the house. ayah thought i was asleep. actually, i didnt sleep a wink cause i was on the phone, with her. from the moment she reached home, at around 11plus, all the way to 3am. thanks for teman-ing me ehk, appreciate it really. didnt know what's the initial plan actually. ayah was not one to talk much. abouth this short getaway to endau beach resort pun, he only told me about it like 2,3days before.

so blah, blah, blah, reached machap stopover around 6 plus morning for early breakfast. the place sucks really, BIG TIME, with lots and lots of mosquitoes, flying here and there, and i mean A LOT. damn.
Then went to Muar to eat satay. i was like;" why the hell must we go to Muar, just to eat satay? aper, singapore daa takder satay lagi ker? " sigh.

the next initial plan was actually to go to Segamat, kononnyer teringin nak makan durian lah kan. but we found out upon reaching the place, not even one stall was opened yet! waste time only! den ayah said," maybe still early, its only 9am."
adoii ayah. teringin naaq makan durian, jangan cakap durian, biji durian pun taq nampak. jangan cakap biji durian, bau durian pun taq dapat jamah! -___-"

Then went to Kluang, stopped by the side of the road where a makcik set up a stall that sells goreng pisang. Not makcik keropok eh, please.. -___-"!! the goreng pisang was oh so delicious! like seriously, sedap banget loh! we all were so hungry at that point of time, so maybe everything that we ate, taste nice. haha.

FINALLY!

after almost 12 hours of journey, we finally reached our destination, endau beach resort. the first thing that i thought of was the bed, cause all i want was to put everything down and head straight to the.. bed. haiyoh..
my first impression of the resort would be hmm.. okay okay ah. haha. like seriouuuuusly, AVERAGE ajeer. now ayah and adeq trying out the pool, so jakuuun lah they all. and mama is sitting at the poolside, taking pictures of them. haha, what a time to bond with the family. -__-"

and what am i doing?
just sitting at the balcony, all alone, and writing about my experience for today, wishing i could be anywhere, but here.

the poolview. nice?

ours for a day.

bbQ at night!

please come faster TOMORROW, i can't wait to go back singapore laa.

Rochester Park

2009-08-09T09:37:00.000+08:00

A beautiful saturday morning
and the first thing that greet me was the exchanges of message, with her.

her: good morning, syai :)
me: good morning awaq, buat aper tu?
her: tengah cuci tembok :(

haha. simple, yet sweet. i actually LOL when she told me she was springcleaning her room. yelarh,

pagy2 im like still sleeping and there you are, dah kene buat kerje rumah. haha.

Aniway, wanted to continue to sleep, but mama pestered me to 'bangun! ikut mama gi jemputan.'
sigh. i hate going to jemputan, and will always be. so many makcik kaypos, if you know what i mean. But, nak taqnaq, mama dah suruh, so naq buat aper kan. adoii.

The jemputan was held at err.. i think its called 'Rochester Park' at Buona Vista. Alaa, very very very grand place, to hold a wedding ceremony. But, so effing cool ! wished i could have mine at the same place, sigh. continue dreaming syai. -___-"

The groom was a 'mat salleh' and the bride, kak tati, cik Jam peh anak. cik jam used to be neneq's neighbour. Neneq was close to her, so dah anggap macam sedare sendiri.

aniway, you know what?
cik jam peh anak, both girls and then the kakak kahwin 'mat salleh' abang, and the adek pompuan kahwin the 'mat salleh' adeq. cool or what? you all paham tak? never mind.

here are some of the pictures i took at the place itself, have fun viewing. more pictures coming soon. :)

adek and me, before going out.

me, cousin & adeq.

candid us.

cucu-cucu neneq! :)

adoii. how i wised you were mine laa.

waiting for her to reached home. gonna talk to her tonight.
going for a short qetaway with family, and im so not looking forward to it.

kpak bing! bing!

2009-08-07T20:41:00.001+08:00

kpak bing! bing!

heheh.. like finally..
i accomplished my mission :)

tak sia sia kene di label ' makcik kaypo' laa
tak sia sia kene di label 'korang ajar' laa
tak sia sia kene campak botol kat kepala laa -__-"

akhirnyer, ehem ehem jugaak koraaang ni!
haahhahaa.

TO HER!
haha.. omg! im so happy for you laa. to think u told me this pagy2 bute, aku ni yang ngantok boleh tak jadi ngantuk pulaaq! pffffft! and he still is wondering how i got to know about it. hehehe!!
Even though we have just been friends for what, 3 or 4 months , i think your a very sweet girl, who deserved to be happy, with your other half. i seriouuuuusly am so excited now that your with him, and i trust him to take good care of you. just jangan luper aku sudaaah ehk!

TO HIM!
mugcow! so nii kau nyer 'cuming soon eh' ? haha.. i seriouuuuusly didnt expect it to be this sooon.
wow, kau really 'progress' cepaat ehk? hmm, kau pun same. the reason why aku tolong kau, macam aku kate, aku seriouuuuusly think korang duer memang secocok laa. haha. do treasure her okay! and i trust you to keep your words, or i will come and look for you eh.

okaylah! congrats to the both of you okay.
semoga hubungan korangss kekal sampai betul betul
KPAK BING! BING!
=D

this video, aku dedicate untuk korang!same situation macam korang lah seyy! enjoy!

if only WE could have been like them.
ok, shall stop here.

T.G.I.F!!

2009-08-07T17:46:00.000+08:00

finally,

My very own blog is officially open!

Thanks to adeq, who helped me changed the blogskin and stuff.
‘tak reti lah aku nak tukar2 ni semer. Biar tanyer dengan yang tahu, jgn act tahu :)
So thanks lah deq. Boleh harap jugaaq adeqku ini eyy. :) ‘

school was okay. AVERAGE at best. Seriously no mood to study, no mood to do anything. I also dunnoe why. And i need to seriously study for UT laa. adoii.

Hmm.. It really is tough being syai yknow!
Why?

Syai is syai when he :

- Acts like a monkey in class.
- Goes around and plug out people’s mouse.
- Doing nonsensical stuff every single day.
- Making jokes all the time.

However, syai is not syai when he :

- Sits down and do his work.
- Not disturbing at least one person in class for a day.
- Not making jokes.
- and, when he keeps quiet.

Haha, Yeah-ness.
the beloved W35F thought I had some problems,
Just because I was not my usual self for today. -__-“

aniway, i so so love the madagascar song.hehehe.
okay.shall stop here now.

The First Ever!! Coolness!!

2009-08-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow !!
can u believe it?
syai got blog already larh seyy!
is this cool or what?
hehehks..!
gotta thank my friends for this, really.
i get so envious when they update about their everyday's life!
so i figured, why not i start my own one as well..
haha, so here i am!
but nvm,

more updates coming yaw! :)