Monday, August 31, 2009 ; 12:30 AMY
My Thoughts...
First up, thanks to all who took the time to read my previous post.
and saying a prayer for my neneq. i really appreciate that, so thank you.
and saying a prayer for my neneq. i really appreciate that, so thank you.
well, today . pretty much the same thing, i guess.
woke up so late, on lappy, watched tv, text her :), while waiting for the time to buke.
this has been going on and on, and im starting to feel bored already. hahahas.
something to look forward to, buke-ing with the malay W35F peeps this tuesday
as well as buke-ing with the usuals the next day!
woohoohoo! i seriously hope, im able to make it for the both of them.
been missing my friends lately. hahaha.
and OH YEAH!
my knees! pffft....! it 'act up' again today! but this time, it feels much more pain than what i've used to gone through. it was just like the first time i had this problem. mygawd!
i literally walked, or should i say, limped from my room to the toilet, but it seems like forever to reach.
damn you right knee. hate you. urggh!
i really think i should go do something about it. well, maybe i should pester ikhlas to give me that pakcik's contact, so i can arrange for an 'urut' session.
im going the traditional way, this time, so i sure hopes it'll help.
and oh! if you dont get what i meant by my knee 'act up' again, i did post an entry about it, so yerp, ringan-ringan lah tangan yer gy bace my previous post tu :)
saw this on youtube, and i think its hilarious.
so i shall share it with you guys. cheers!
i literally walked, or should i say, limped from my room to the toilet, but it seems like forever to reach.
damn you right knee. hate you. urggh!
i really think i should go do something about it. well, maybe i should pester ikhlas to give me that pakcik's contact, so i can arrange for an 'urut' session.
im going the traditional way, this time, so i sure hopes it'll help.
and oh! if you dont get what i meant by my knee 'act up' again, i did post an entry about it, so yerp, ringan-ringan lah tangan yer gy bace my previous post tu :)
saw this on youtube, and i think its hilarious.
so i shall share it with you guys. cheers!
when two hearts become one.
I'll be your Romeo, and you'll be my Juliet
=)
Sunday, August 30, 2009 ; 12:57 AMY
My Thoughts...
It seems almost unreal to think that it has already been four months
my Grandma joined God in heaven.
So much has happened in my life ever since, without that one important person by my side. Those close to me would know how much she means to me, she is much more important to me than my family is. Because in truth, she is my family. She was the one who took care of me since birth, feeding me, bathing me, scolding me, only to be taken away by my mum and dad, when I am old enough to walk. Man, I got so many things to say, but im just not good with words. In short, I really miss my late neneq so so much.
Today was a little bit different. Decided to buke with my makciks and cousins at neneq’s place. Since it has been some time i last met them, me and adeq decided to tag along. But honestly, I wanted to be anywhere, but there. Neneq’s place. You know, there’s too many fond memories and her stuff there. I feared that seeing all her stuff,that reminded me of her, my emotions will take over me.
As I walked up the 2nd floor to my granny’s house, I felt sad suddenly. Why? Because I remembered, she had to struggle up and down the long steps whenever she had to go for her regular check-ups. I was there , beside her, supporting her arms, as we slowly make our way down. FOR EVERY CHECK-UPS SHE HAD TO GO. That was partly the reason why I skipped so many class during my ITE times, but its okay. She is much more important, to me. I can still remember, I used to joke with her everytime we had to climb up the stairs.
Me: neneq ni, slow laaaa. Siput pun jalan lagy cepaat tao nek.
Nenek: nenek tahu lah, nenek lambat. Abg nak naik, naik dulu la.
Me: alaa majok lah tu. Jgn majok nek, buruk tao nenek klu majok. Kay cepat2! Lagy sikit jer tu!
Haha.. these were the times.. I miss walking up the stairs slowly with u neneq.
As we reached neneq’s house, I started to tear. I don’t know why I did, but it did. Slowly I step into the house, my eyes were constantly looking here and there. Is this where, my granny used to live, where I used to come and visit her every weekend? I felt akward going into the house. I do not know why. I went into the both rooms, the kitchen, the toilet, everywhere. And that’s where I saw it, her tongkat and her wheelchair. I started crying non-stop, touching the tongkat. This was the tongkat that followed her wherever she goes, in the house, outside the house, everywhere. It was so hard for me to fight back my tears, I didn’t want to show my adek, sedare and makciks that I was crying like a child. I Hold on to it for a good 5minutes, wiped my tears and it was time to buke.
Makton bought for me nasi ambeng, and we all ate at the living room. Suddenly I flashed back to the time where neneq was still around. Tyme buke, we will all be seated like how we were, and she on the chair looking at us eat. I can still remember her smiling and talking, while we were all buke-ing.
Those times..
There was ayam masak merah in the nasi ambeng, so yeah. That reminded me of her too. Why? I can remember whenever I felt like going to neneq house, I’ll call her and tell her I’ll be going to her house today, and she will always say,’tapi rumah neneq tak masak tao.. nak dtg, dtg laa, tapi takder makan.’ . But when I reached her place, fuuuuuuuuh! Dari jauh dah boleh bau neneq punyer special ayam masak merah.
This is why I love her so much; whatever illness she is having, kaki saket2 ker, she will ensure there’s food for us cucu to eat.
Me: neneq! kater tak masak. Saket2 boleh jalan2, boleh masak lagy. Nenek eksyen saket ehhh…
Nenek: abeh? Nak harapkan abg masakkan untuk nenek ker? Boleh lah masak sikit2 gini, kalau takder makan abg nk makan ape kan nari.
Me: boleh beli kat kedai mamak bawah aper.
Neneq: alaaa. Dorang takder ayam masak merah.
Me: betul! Neneq lah yang paling best! Ehhe…
Ohgawd, I seriously miss your ayam masak merah,right now.
After done with buke, we all sat around and watch some dvds. When it was close to 10, we all decided to go back home. I really did not want to leave the house, because for all the while I was in the house, I am sure I had this feeling, that she was around,somewhere, Looking at me. Err, its like ‘ I may be looking at the tv screen, but I had this niggling feeling , someone’s watching me at the kitchen. When I turned around, there was no one.’ Something like that. I was not scared at all. But I was hoping, if it is really her, I could just catch a glimpse of her. But I didn’t. so after looking for one last time, I stepped out of the house, makton locked the door, and we were on our way home.
After done with buke, we all sat around and watch some dvds. When it was close to 10, we all decided to go back home. I really did not want to leave the house, because for all the while I was in the house, I am sure I had this feeling, that she was around,somewhere, Looking at me. Err, its like ‘ I may be looking at the tv screen, but I had this niggling feeling , someone’s watching me at the kitchen. When I turned around, there was no one.’ Something like that. I was not scared at all. But I was hoping, if it is really her, I could just catch a glimpse of her. But I didn’t. so after looking for one last time, I stepped out of the house, makton locked the door, and we were on our way home.
So a note to neneq,
"Abg betul2 rindukan neneq. Abg rindu nenek punyer ayam masak merah. Abg rindu nenek urutkan abg. Dulu, nenek suker sangat senyap2 letak 10dollar kat dlm kocek abg. Tahu2 jer, wallet tumbuh duit 10dollar, kadang2 kocek seluar tumbuh duit 10 dollar, kadang2 beg skolah punyer pocket pun boleh tumbuh 10dollar.ader je tao tempat nak selit duit! Abg rindu segala2nyer tentang neneq, neneq tak rindu abg ker? Tapi kenape sampai sekarang tak pernah pun neneq dtg kat mimpi abg? Makton ader ckp, nek amah pernah mimpi neneq cakap gini gini gini kat nek amah, tapi kenape bukan abg? Sekarang neneq dah takder, abg tak tahu nak balas jasa-jasa neneq. Cumer abg tahu, setiap malam, without fail tao! Abg akan sedekahkan al-fatihah untuk nenek. I miss you lah neneq,badly… " =(
Ok, I shall stop here now. can I ask anyone who’s reading this to say a prayer for her? I am sure she will receive it on the other side. thank you so much.
Friday, August 28, 2009 ; 12:00 AMY
My Thoughts...
And i have just received the letter.
a good thing i did, before mama or ayah got hold of it.
shall not talk more about it.
siaper yang tahu, tahu lah kan.
haha.
and im sorry okay bro! for dragging you along.
serious shit, i am so sorry.
so note to myself,
don't do this kind of things again okay!
once bitten, twice syai (shy)
itu salah !
omg, i feel so full now, like im 8months pregnant.
sheesh.
Thursday, August 27, 2009 ; 12:12 AMY
My Thoughts...
i dont know why blogger only return to its normal self at night.
i think must 'sayang sayang' it, then can.
oh wells.
so a note to you.
i am goin to miss you. i just got to know about it like 10minutes ago.
i am sad that i am never gonna be seeing you ever again.
what makes me even more sad is that,
i did not have the chance to say goodbye to you, to hug you, to kiss you.
you were my first love, and i am going to remember you, for sure.
i hope they will take good care of you, just like how i painstakingly did.
i am going to miss you, so goodbye ....
my gilera .
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 ; 11:31 PMY
My Thoughts...
I hate blogger. you have been testing my patience.
you would have been dead by now, if you exist.
damn you.
; 12:49 AMY
My Thoughts...
it seems that blogger is back to normal only at late nights.
creepy, but im not sure why.
but its okay, shall blog now.
errm, finally ..
today marks the end of the las UT, Programming. -____-"
as expected, i didnt even know how to answer even a single question
so was literally just putting any answers to any questions.
and oh, thanks eh azhar! you know, i know.. =D
and so,
Im done with semester one! done with UTs! done with all that crap!
woohoohooo!
I'm so looking forward to the holidays.. even though i don't have any plans.
but it means, i can go to sleep late, i can wake up late like nobody's business
and lepak till the wee hours!
woohooohooo!
The bad news is, this mark the last day for the beloved W35F peeps.
brought along my 'TWISTER' for them to play.
managed to take pictures with eunice and yan wei, the chinese peeps.
feel somewhat sad, when they were going off.
never mind. we'll still got chalet coming up. so looking forward to it.
and yes eunice! i am so gonna shout it out loud 'EUNICE!!!' like nobody business like that, if i see you in the future. =D
after that, had one final lepak session with the malay peeps. all was there, though ain went off halfway. But, it was the first time, if im not wrong laa kan, that everyone was present ?
selalunyer, 'dekni ade, dektu takder'.. kalau 'dektu takder, dekni ader'..
played some card games, and were gurau-ing with all of them.
gonna miss all this. haha. i dont know but i feel macam so sediih gitu. ahaha.
so, we walked to causeway point at around 530pm, since we had to go home to buke.
the weather was kinda hot, but the thing is, everyone was like walking so damn slow.
macam berat kaki lah sangat-sangat naq balek. hahaha.
finally reached the control station, and it was time to say goodbye.
haha. saw siti's face, knew she was kinda sad. that made me sad too
after saying bye bye to the peeps, everyone then went to different directions.
and that was it.
no worries, we will plan to buke again some time soon.
make sure all will be free okay, azhar, siti, ahmud, zul, ain, mirah and mai?
good thing i took the videos from siti already, boring2 tengok baleq video
boleh ketawa sorang2. haha.
gonna miss you guys. especially you.
and im done for now.Tuesday, August 25, 2009 ; 12:13 AMY
My Thoughts...
BLOGGER IS STILL TESTING MY PATIENT.
damn you.
Today, was a good day, for me.
MATHS UT done, left with PROGRAMMING.
YEAY-ness.
As expected, maths was hard, like hell.
i gave up on it in less than 15 minutes.
guess what i did for the last 20mins for maths ut?
hahaha.
spend the last 20minutes, sketching this.
nice? i know.
and im done with maths ut3, finally!
AND THEN!
went straight home, slept until 5.
poor azhar,mirah and siti.
lepak at library to kill their time
until buke time!
hehe..
met them around 630.
and i brought along my 'TWISTER' game.
lucky thing i brought it along,
they sure had fun.
me bought nasi campur at the woodlands bazaar, which was not nice.
am not going to buy from you animore laa, makcik.
mirah was superb laa.
beli makan, macam naq beli untuk sahur sekali.
hahaha.
jangan marah yer mirah,
bulan pose, taqleh marah.
terserampak with arif, saf and sheila at the bazaar.
don't worry, we'll buke sesame one day okay? :)
after filling up our stomach,
proceeded to play the 'TWISTER'
haha..
was damn fun.
i became the 'game master'
they all played along .
so fun.
ain saket2 main JUGAK , takut2 jer appendix dier terbukak
mirah pulaaq macam fighter, taknak kalah.
azhar, the only guy playing, pun taknak kalah
siti, standard. tukang ketawa.
and maisarah
shouting here and there.
' CEPAAT LAAAH!'
hahaha.
had fun lah today, seriously.
how am i not gonna miss you guys, when we'r not in the same class anymore?
sob. sob.
never mind.
the video is at siti's blog.
check it out, guys.
countdown : 3down, 26 more to go
and im done blogging.
Saturday, August 22, 2009 ; 12:05 AMY
My Thoughts...
BLOGGER IS
SERIOUSLY TESTING MY PATIENT .
cannot log in,
cannot change font,
cannot change the size,
cannot upload pictures, videos.
EVERYTHING ALSO CANNOT!
a good thing its ramadhan
so macam maner pun, i cannot get angry.
damn you lah blogger.
many things happened recently.
UTs almost over,
3papers down, 2 to go.
enterprise was okay, science was hard
and problem solving was confusing!
i just can't wait to get my programming
over and done with.
yesterday,
went to lunch with the usuals and chinese peeps.
had fun making a nuisance of ourselves.haha.
and yeah,
arcade, was damn fun.
oscar denying me the 2nd spot at daytona
by crashing his car to mine.
damn you. haha.
and we lost the game card.
so sad.
to you who took it,
hope you kena h1n1.
and im bloody serious about it.
gonna miss the w35f peeps.
like seriously.
and im glad, we'r finally talking.
and im done blogging.
Thursday, August 20, 2009 ; 11:42 PMY
My Thoughts...
" To be in love with someone
who is in another relationship with someone else can be the most excruciating,
and at the same time the most seemingly beautiful experience of your life.
The experience is excruciating because it is hard to stop or change it. It puts you in a situation you may not be able to get out of for a long time, one you may in fact not want to get out of. Your inability to make the situation into exactly what you want it to be makes you suffer.
The experience is beautiful because the person that you are in love with seems like your perfect, ideal partner – your soul mate. There is a very special connection between the two of you. The attention from your loved one and the way he or she feels about you is deeply satisfying. The bond between the two of you seems magical.
In spite of the beauty and the connection in the relationship, you suffer tremendously. It’s as if you are on a roller-coaster ride, up one moment and more in love then you have ever been, down the next and in more despair then you have ever felt. "
something i read from the Net, which i thought i would like to share it with korang-korangs..
how true.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009 ; 9:33 PMY
My Thoughts...
things are turning from bad to worse.
i don't want to be the bad guy over here, nor see you behave this way.
we are, and will always be friends.
'friends forever...'
you never have to doubt that.
believe me.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009 ; 9:28 AMY
My Thoughts...
~ THANK YOU W35F ~
for the wonderful memories..
John (the small dude) :
thanks for saving my ass for every science lesson.
samuel (the organiser) :
you're the only other person in the class taking the same course as me,
so yeah hope to be in the same class again.
eunice (hotstuff babe!) :
the only girl whose older than me.
haha. last long with your boyfie alright.
Lijun (the japanese-faced babe!):
haha. i still think you look japanese. i dont know why. lol.
last long with oscar okayy? :)
Oscar (the korean hunk!):
you're the first friend i made in class.
maybe because your handsome,thats why.
last long with lijun okayy? :)
Reuben (the hardworking dude!) :
thanks for helping me when i needed help.
for the wonderful memories..
John (the small dude) :
thanks for saving my ass for every science lesson.
samuel (the organiser) :
you're the only other person in the class taking the same course as me,
so yeah hope to be in the same class again.
eunice (hotstuff babe!) :
the only girl whose older than me.
haha. last long with your boyfie alright.
Lijun (the japanese-faced babe!):
haha. i still think you look japanese. i dont know why. lol.
last long with oscar okayy? :)
Oscar (the korean hunk!):
you're the first friend i made in class.
maybe because your handsome,thats why.
last long with lijun okayy? :)
Reuben (the hardworking dude!) :
thanks for helping me when i needed help.
the most hardworking person in w35f.
Bernard(the gay boy):
i really thought you were gay at first. but not anymore.
and i prefer your old hair, but nvm.
you still rocks.
Junming( chong-ge!):
my smoking buddy. thanks for saving my ass for programming.
hail chong laa!
Daryl (the hunk!):
i dont think you should be chasing girls,
girls should be chasing you instead.
Bernard(the gay boy):
i really thought you were gay at first. but not anymore.
and i prefer your old hair, but nvm.
you still rocks.
Junming( chong-ge!):
my smoking buddy. thanks for saving my ass for programming.
hail chong laa!
Daryl (the hunk!):
i dont think you should be chasing girls,
girls should be chasing you instead.
it was a pleasure knowng you.
QiYuan(7dollar):
i don't know why the friends call you 7dollar, but who cares.
its cool aniway.
anw, thanks for doing all the work for programming! :)
william(cheeer!):
thanks for teaching me maths, though
its difficult for us to communicate.
gonna miss you and your ,'cheeer!'
Tong-tong!( the china guy):
tong2! next time dont scold me bad word anymore okay!
kidding.
wish you success for your future.
charlene( the tongue-got-pierce babe!)
charlene nai wen yi! haha.
can remember your full name cause i did gave u a prank call b4 for not coming to maths class.
hehe
kristi(the pretty babe!):
i think you look better without tying up your hair laa.
but nvm
thanks for being my friend.
yanwei( the short babe!):
been calling you 'the blue shirt girl' ever since the first day of school.
cause i had a hard time remember your name laa.
haha.
jerrin (sharukh khan of w35f!):
you ah, long time never see you in class.
hope you recover soon.
ut cuming up okay!
christee (my darling!):
darling! haha.. thanks for cheering me up.
whenever i'm emoing.haha.
your one friend i wont forget. :)
Ain (mummy ain!):
wishing you a speedy recovery from your operation.
long time never see you.
miss your singing voice laa.
and yea, u sang really well okay!
mira (the bodybuilder!):
haha. sorry lah mira
kept teasing you 'girl badan sapau'
haha. i dont mean it laa.
sajer kacau2. mintaq maaf yer :)
QiYuan(7dollar):
i don't know why the friends call you 7dollar, but who cares.
its cool aniway.
anw, thanks for doing all the work for programming! :)
william(cheeer!):
thanks for teaching me maths, though
its difficult for us to communicate.
gonna miss you and your ,'cheeer!'
Tong-tong!( the china guy):
tong2! next time dont scold me bad word anymore okay!
kidding.
wish you success for your future.
charlene( the tongue-got-pierce babe!)
charlene nai wen yi! haha.
can remember your full name cause i did gave u a prank call b4 for not coming to maths class.
hehe
kristi(the pretty babe!):
i think you look better without tying up your hair laa.
but nvm
thanks for being my friend.
yanwei( the short babe!):
been calling you 'the blue shirt girl' ever since the first day of school.
cause i had a hard time remember your name laa.
haha.
jerrin (sharukh khan of w35f!):
you ah, long time never see you in class.
hope you recover soon.
ut cuming up okay!
christee (my darling!):
darling! haha.. thanks for cheering me up.
whenever i'm emoing.haha.
your one friend i wont forget. :)
Ain (mummy ain!):
wishing you a speedy recovery from your operation.
long time never see you.
miss your singing voice laa.
and yea, u sang really well okay!
mira (the bodybuilder!):
haha. sorry lah mira
kept teasing you 'girl badan sapau'
haha. i dont mean it laa.
sajer kacau2. mintaq maaf yer :)
maisarah (the sweet babe!):
probably the one friend ive grown attachedto the most.
yeah, i was close to you.
friend forever okay ? :)
ahmud (the serious dude!):
i really thought u had the 'eh-i-dun-disturb-u-u-dun-come-and-disturb-me-ah'
kind of attitude at first.
but u showed me your true colours during our
live in texas karaoke concert.
was that you? nvm
last long with her okay? :)
fazlun (the malu2-tapi-mahu babe!):
thanks for being such a wonderful friend.
and for all u have done for me.
appreciate it.
last long with him okay?:)
zul(abang2 cool!):
another smoking buddy of mine.
kiter jer eh cnsidered tua di class.haha.
thanks bro, halalkan makanan minuman dan rokok aku yerr.
azhar(abang2 gamelan!):
ni budaq maseh boi lagy.
boi taqper, isap rokok pulaaq tu!
siaper yang ajar?hehehe.
gonna miss the way u laugh laa.
the 'ketawa macam ader bender stuck kat tekak tu'
:)
a little dedication to the peeps of w35f
From the bottom of my heart,Thanks for being my friend! :)
Monday, August 17, 2009 ; 12:35 AMY
My Thoughts...
If I had never met you
I wouldnt like you.
If I never had liked you
I would have never loved you.
If I had never loved you,
I would have never miss you.
But I did, I do, and I will.
I could fill a thousand pages telling you how i felt,
and still you would not understand.
So now, I leave without a sound,
except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.
; 12:01 AMY
My Thoughts...
RESULTS!
At last, PIALA RAJA PANGGUNG 2009 telah pun selesai,
and fortunately enough everything went smoothly.
had an awesome yet tiring day today,
turun naik turun naik tangga usher kumpulan2
dengan kakiku yang tempang nii.
adoii.
Tapi taqperlah, it's not like everyday dapat organise competition kan
so yea,
congrats to yang menang, yang kalah tidaq mengapa,
asalkan enjoy beb.
and to the organisers,
At last, PIALA RAJA PANGGUNG 2009 telah pun selesai,
and fortunately enough everything went smoothly.
had an awesome yet tiring day today,
turun naik turun naik tangga usher kumpulan2
dengan kakiku yang tempang nii.
adoii.
Tapi taqperlah, it's not like everyday dapat organise competition kan
so yea,
congrats to yang menang, yang kalah tidaq mengapa,
asalkan enjoy beb.
and to the organisers,
CUCU DATUK MERAH
WE DID A GOOD JOB LARH SEY!
now watch us for the next upcoming comp,
ku dah taq sabar naq tepok2 ni.
hehe.
Tempat Pertama
Neng Nyno
Tempat Kedua
Andika Kencana
Tempat Ketiga
Durba Dua
Piala Puteri Dikir
Wahana Deksu
Tok Juara Terbaik
Neng Nyno
Tok Juara Berpotensi
Durba Dua
Tukang Karut Terbaik
Andika Kencana
Tukang Karut Berpotensi
Durba Dua
Paluan Terbaik
Neng Nyno
Paluan Berpotensi
Endang
Senikata Terbaik
SBPM
Senikata Berpotensi
Durba Dua
Awok2 Terbaik
Neng Nyno
Awok2 Berpotensi
Endang
Kesenian Terbaik
Neng Nyno
Kumpulan Berpotensi
Endang
Lagu Ciptaan Asli Terbaik (Ditaja oleh Saudara Talib)
Durba Dua
Koreografi Terbaik (ditaja oleh Saudara Imran)
Wahana Deksu
Pakaian Seragam Terbaik (Ditaja oleh Saudara Imran)
Wahana Deksu
Awok-Awok Paling cute
Epul (cucu datuk merah)
heheheh..
these are the results for the finals of piala raja panggung.
all 14groups were really on form today, as shown by their performance.
special recognition to Endang and Durba Dua.
to Endang, congrats lah to korang. work even harder to achieve greater heights alright.
kirim salam pader semuer :)
to Durba Dua, i really felt you all deserved the 2nd or even the 1st placing. you guys were awesome laa. dapat curi2 tengok korang pat atas, and i was like 'woaaaa!' biler tengok korang pat atas stage tu. nvm, aniway congrats to you guys :)
see you all at the next comp!
to Endang, congrats lah to korang. work even harder to achieve greater heights alright.
kirim salam pader semuer :)
to Durba Dua, i really felt you all deserved the 2nd or even the 1st placing. you guys were awesome laa. dapat curi2 tengok korang pat atas, and i was like 'woaaaa!' biler tengok korang pat atas stage tu. nvm, aniway congrats to you guys :)
see you all at the next comp!
Sunday, August 16, 2009 ; 2:19 AMY
My Thoughts...
PIALA RAJA PANGGUNG FINALS 2009!
and so this is it.
14 teams fighting it out
for that top prize.
which team will emerge victorious?
and which team will go back, empty-handed?
watch this space.
ahaha. cam paham jer aku nihh. but seriously, tomorrow is the day of the finals of the piala raja panggung 2009.
am so excited about it.
okayy, me not playing, just organising je -___-"
but dah lame taq tepok menepok nii, naik gian jugaak aku.
haha.
wished i could be involve in this comp, up there on stage
but ohwells ,
wanna see who the eventual winner will be.
TO ALL th 14 FINALIST GROUPS,
ALL THE BEST FOR TODAY!
kalah menang taqpe, yang penting enjoy!
; 1:53 AMY
My Thoughts...
GET WELL SOON BRO!
a good thing that kau still alive lah. was shocked to hear the news that kau met with an accident. tengok apa dah jadi? kau ni dah lah tak hansem, abeh skarang dah jadi gini, kau lagi makin tq hansem!haha, kiding bro.
but seriously, dengar aper yang dorang2 cakap, entah benar ker taq, 'kau kene heret dengan tu lorry laa', 'kau tercampak abeh kau flying kat tu signboard sampai signbord tu jatuh' laa and from the looks of your injury, the impact must have been so great.
so make this as a lesson learnt bro, we may have the right of way, but others may not neccesarily think so. kekadang, kiter yang bawak selamat, orang lain yang bawak taq selamat.
rest well aite jubs! wish you a speedy recovery!
yang penting aku sekarang lagi cute dari kau! haha!=D
Saturday, August 15, 2009 ; 1:35 AMY
My Thoughts...
Skipped my programming class
go and watched 'UP' with the beloved W35F malay peeps, except for azhar.
step rajin jer budaq ni, suruh ikot taqnaq.
who could have thought mirah, and ahmud joined us to skip class
to go watch movie together together?
haha.
But, i know ahmud's gonna get into shit for skipping class.
JIWE AH LU EHK!
i like your style. bukan macam azhar. hehe.
'UP' was seriously good, nice and funny.
encourage you to watch it if you have not seen it.
ok so yeah, after that back to school for gamelan.
didnt wanna go actually, but ahmud wanted to, so ikot je laa.
and because of that,
i had to skipped dikir meeting at bedok.
meeting was supposed to b at 730, and the gamelan finished at 8.
so was so tired and decided not to.
nvm laa, sat sun dah busy ngan dikir pun.
PIALA RAJA PANGGUNG FINALS
this sunday!
Thursday, August 13, 2009 ; 8:48 AMY
My Thoughts...
missed the old times,
where everything was just about fun and laughter.
where we used to meet every single night.
making silly videos. =D
now everybody's busy with their own life, busy with schools, busy with NS and stuff.
we all must go riding together one day, alright.
MAJULAH ADAMANTIUM!
mtv- ketahuan =D
mtv- jangan tunggu lama-lama =D
mtv- dangdut ini kali.. gelek korang gelek! =D
-* ADAMANTIUM *-
the pride and souL of admiralty.
and im done, for now.
do comment on our videos alright. =D
do comment on our videos alright. =D
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 ; 10:00 PMY
My Thoughts...
My Biggest mistake.
had really difficulty walking today, and it is killing me. thanks ayah, for sending me to school today. i really regretted playing in that tournament, seriously. because of that, my life completely changed. i don't feel like a man now. which guy dont play soccer? yelah, taq tahu main pun, at least can kick the ball. nie tidaaq, main sikit jer, knee datanglah sakit dier. feels like cutting my right knee away, 'dah taqle pakai'
i can still remember it clearly. i had this soccer tournament way back in november08, with the adamantium peeps. to cut the story short, i was closing in on this player, and i accidentally slipped and dropped, while my knee was in a awkward position. that was where i heard a 'pop' sound. And the next thing i knew, i could not straighten my right knee, nor i could move. blame it on the pitch, it was damn muddy, and lot of holes here and there.
went to the doctor straightaway. the doctor wantedto refer me to the hospital for further chekup, but ayah said no need, just give me medicines and MCs. if things don't take a turn for the better, then we will go to the hospital. another wrong decision i made. i was on crutches the whole week, and going about doing my normal routine was hell. but by a week, i can slowly move my leg. so i was actually glad that it was nothing so serious like fractures or any internal injury, as what the doctor initially feared. But i guess i was wrong.
Fast forward to now, and it is already 10months, and im still having this problem. the knee 'acting up' . 'acting up' basically means, if i have this knee-jerk reaction or a sudden twist of my right knee, the 'pop' sound can be heard, and then i must slowwwwwwwly straighten my knee, hear the 'pop' sound again, and i will be back to normal. But it is really painful, i tell you. so you tell me, how much sufferings have i gone through for the past 10months? HELL.
i did went for an xray in early march09, but it was no use. i can still remember it.
doc: so mr syaiful, the xray reports shows that your bone is perfectly okay, is in the correct position, and no fractures at all. in short u are physically fit for ur napha test tmr.
me: ok, fine. so explain to me, y do i still have pain at the back of my knee then?
doc: oh maybe,its ur ligament. maybe u have torn ur ACL
me: can be detected by xray?
doc: no, u will need to go to a specialist.
me: THEN Y THE FUCK DO U TELL ME TO DO N XRAY THEN? IVE TOLD U, I KNOW MY BONES ARE OKAY, ITS JUST THE TISSUE! WHAT KIND OF A DOCTO ARE U, STUPID FAGGOT!
and i tore the xray report infront of him, stormed out of the room, banged the door, and gave him the middle finger before going off, didnt even pay the consultation fee. i was damn angry with that 'mamak' laa. but here's another mistake i made. i should have kept the report so, at least i have proof document the next time im going for my NS medical checkup. damn.
Now, i do not know what to do. i seriously miss kicking a ball, miss playing soccer. but what to do. i have to go for an operation. BUT ITS A BIG NO NO for me. i fear injections, thats why.
As im writing this, the knee are still hurting, and it has already been one whole day of pain, and agony. what should i do? HELP!
here is video of how the reconstructuring of ACL takes place.
viewers discreetion is advised.
my knee may hurt right now, but you hurt me more.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 ; 7:08 PMY
My Thoughts...
Just So You Know by Jesse McCartney
was youtubing, practically nothing to do
when i chanced upon this song
love it though, so i thought i should just share it with you all.
enjoy.
I shouldnt love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldnt see you but i cant move
I cant lookaway
And i dont know
How to be fine When im not
'Cause I dont know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much i cant say
Do you want me to hide the felings
And look the other way
And i dont know
How to be fine when im not
'Cause I dont know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
This emptiness is killing me
And im wondering why i've waited so long
Looking back I realize it was always there
Just never spoken
I'm wating here
Been waiting here
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
I shouldnt love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldnt see you but i cant move
I cant lookaway
And i dont know
How to be fine When im not
'Cause I dont know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much i cant say
Do you want me to hide the felings
And look the other way
And i dont know
How to be fine when im not
'Cause I dont know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
This emptiness is killing me
And im wondering why i've waited so long
Looking back I realize it was always there
Just never spoken
I'm wating here
Been waiting here
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control
Of me and i cant help it
I wont sit round
I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
Of you but i dont want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
music sets the tone, and the feelings as well.
Monday, August 10, 2009 ; 3:35 PMY
My Thoughts...
Missing You
All i need is one chance,baby
To prove to the world you mean everything to me.
Hey you. Thanks for calling me and accompanying me through the night. Really appreciate it that you would still wanna layan me and my 'gila-ness' in the middle of the night,even though you were out the whole day, and i know u were freaking tired, cause you sounded so. It's good we are talking now and that i no longer feel so 'awkward' when you're around with me, and the friends. Now, please don't say i'm a romantic guy okayy, cause i seriously am not. Adoii. The reason why im blogging about this is because i am so effing bored here at this supposedly 'luxurious' resort so i thought i might as well use the time to sort things out, and think about IT.
I guess we should know, more or less about each other now right? From that 'little game' we played over on the phone that night. Tough questions, yeah? hahaha.. And so, i did made it clear to you, that i still harbour hopes to be with you. That's right, i still do. The fact that you said 'if there is a guy who could make me forget about him, I would' gives me the motivation and the strength i need to prove to you, that could happen.
i'll fight till the very end, to prove to the rest that, this feelings i have for you, is true.
Aniway, so sorry i could not contact you the whole day in Malaysia. F laa kann.. So, i guess this is the only way to show you, that although i may be over here, my mind is always with you. and i know you would be reading this! =D
okay, shall stop here now. And i so cannot wait for tomorrow to come.
Life is indeed boring, without you.
All i need is one chance,baby.
To prove to the world, you mean everything to me.
All i need is one chance,baby
To prove to the world you mean everything to me.
Hey you. Thanks for calling me and accompanying me through the night. Really appreciate it that you would still wanna layan me and my 'gila-ness' in the middle of the night,even though you were out the whole day, and i know u were freaking tired, cause you sounded so. It's good we are talking now and that i no longer feel so 'awkward' when you're around with me, and the friends. Now, please don't say i'm a romantic guy okayy, cause i seriously am not. Adoii. The reason why im blogging about this is because i am so effing bored here at this supposedly 'luxurious' resort so i thought i might as well use the time to sort things out, and think about IT.
I guess we should know, more or less about each other now right? From that 'little game' we played over on the phone that night. Tough questions, yeah? hahaha.. And so, i did made it clear to you, that i still harbour hopes to be with you. That's right, i still do. The fact that you said 'if there is a guy who could make me forget about him, I would' gives me the motivation and the strength i need to prove to you, that could happen.
i'll fight till the very end, to prove to the rest that, this feelings i have for you, is true.
Aniway, so sorry i could not contact you the whole day in Malaysia. F laa kann.. So, i guess this is the only way to show you, that although i may be over here, my mind is always with you. and i know you would be reading this! =D
okay, shall stop here now. And i so cannot wait for tomorrow to come.
Life is indeed boring, without you.
All i need is one chance,baby.
To prove to the world, you mean everything to me.
