have you guys ever wondered,

what's the point of asking forgiveness, from each other
when we ourselves know we will still make mistakes again?

aku tengok family keluar jalan raya sesame, aku rase jealous sungguh.
will this be the last raya im having with the whole family?
i don't know, im not sure.

whatever it is, aku dah penat.
seriously aku dah penat. penat untuk menghadapi segala ini.
it has reached a point, where my hands are up,
and i say, 'aper nak jadi, jadilah..' i
m troubled by so, so many things,
and i don't have that any strength left within me,to hold on.
i feel i don't have anyone by my side,
the only person i love so much have already been taken away,
and i'm left all alone.

to you:
i dont think you will ever be mine. you wanted me to move on, i did. U came back, and made me wait again. and now? i dont know, i leave everything to Him now. just go, if you want to and Let me be, i dont care about any other thing else right now. all i want is to see you happy, with or without me. that's all.

to you:
dont you fuckingly ever realise that whatever you're doing is breaking the family up?
He gave you a chance, im pretty sure no other dad in this world, can afford to.
But he did.
and you, stubborn as always, did it again.
sampai biler ni, kau nak sembunyikan?
dari neneq ader, sampai sekarang neneq dah tak ader, engkau masih tak berubah2.
Now because of your actions, the family is breaking apart.
i seriously dont have any respect for you at all,
no more.

to all,enjoy your hari raya okay?

have fun with your loved ones. and thanks for reading my crap.

at least i feel slighty better now.

[ and i'm done. ]